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I Think I have figured This out

I just want u to know that I believe you, I have read thru yr thread and I wish there was something I could do to help u.

I know I can't though, just know I understand and accept it and you.

I hope that some day soon, u can find relief from this.

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thank you, finally somebody believes i am not a fool! thank you thank you.
have you been stalked before?
 
self infliction. and for the record, if i feel like it i probably will do it. saturday night, for example, extreme rage episode (possible energy possession) i went all out and slashed something terrible with my trusty pocket knife, but it wasnt my fault that time

:( I'm not happy to hear that at all. I don't want you to hurt yourself.

This all sounds so terrible. What happens to you when you are possessed by this energy? What do you see/feel/hear? Are you aware when it is happening?
 
If you can't control yourself during these energy episodes, wouldn't it be safer not to have anything you can self inflict with (or at the very least not have a knife in your possession)? If it isn't your fault and you can't control yourself, IMO, the best thing to do would be get rid of everything you know you can use to self inflict. Don't hide it, throw it away.
They wont let me. I tried but I find something else, or I will break glass to use a shard. nothing will stop them from destroying me.
 
thank you, finally somebody believes i am not a fool! thank you thank you.
have you been stalked before?

When I was little till about 19, I used to get oppressed between the hours of midnight and 3am.

it would be like I would wake up, need to go pee, so I would reach for the lamp beside my bed, get up and run to the bathroom turning on all the lights whiel I did so, then while I'd be peeing, I'd watch the lights get turned off in the hallway...

Id run back to my room and hide under the covers and feel too scared to go back to sleep,

Finally Id read or something to get my mind off it, and usually I would keep looking up checking to see if there was anything there when I felt like I was being watched again,

when it finally subsided, I'd go back to sleep, then at some point I'd feel it returning then I'd get that fear parallasys again...

During the parallasys, I'd hear this high pitched wailing quivering noise accompanied by the feeling of sinking into my bed. While this was happening, I'd see horrible mask like faces wizing past me (behind my closed eyes), and it would only stop when I was able to make even the tinest little noise.

This went on for most of my growing yrs.

Finally when I was 19, it happened again. This time, I was lying on my stomache with my arms under my pillow. I was facing my room, rather than the corner of the room where my bed was pushed into.

I had a mirror on my headboard.

At this point, I was so frikin tired of it that even though I was really scared as usual, I opened one of my eyes a crack and looked in the miror because this time instead of sinking into my matress, I was feeling like I was sliding across my bed to the edge.

My eye showed me sliding slowly across my bed, then I dared to look at the room. I saw a small hurricane like thing of charcole black color (it was like a funnel of smoke) and I just sat up and yelled at it. Here's what I said; "Get thee behind me satan" and "greater is he who is in me, than he who is in the world" It stopped and has only slightly ever bothered me again since. I know what to do again if it ever does come back full force.

I am not a believer in traditional Christian religion, but I had actually been talking about it to a Christian friend who suggested I try it.

Agagin, I am still more of a spiritual person than a religious person, so I am not going to tell u that u have to believe in Christ or whatever to beat this. If u wanted to try it tho, it might help, who knows... it helped me.

I admit my experiences of oppression were not nearly as dificult as yrs are, but I am just trying to tell u that I understand that it's real for sure, and that I know yr scared and suffering.
 
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Oh I have alliances with the good energes, and Christ, who help me at times. But I think sometimes my brain freezes or my tongue ties and i cannot say His name, or call for help. They temporarily paralyze me
 
:( I'm not happy to hear that at all. I don't want you to hurt yourself.

This all sounds so terrible. What happens to you when you are possessed by this energy? What do you see/feel/hear? Are you aware when it is happening?
While this is happening, i am evil. pure evil. i am very hot and the energies laugh and smirk. they watch me do it like someone would watch porn. it pleases them. i think i am having a nervous breakdown...i had a petit mal seizure and my heart is racing and i have to throw up...i think the energies are mad because i typed in Christ's name...
 
While this is happening, i am evil. pure evil. i am very hot and the energies laugh and smirk. they watch me do it like someone would watch porn. it pleases them. i think i am having a nervous breakdown...i had a petit mal seizure and my heart is racing and i have to throw up...i think the energies are mad because i typed in Christ's name...
i don't know if you align yourself with any religion, but if Christ is helping you, perhaps you could consider talking to a priest/pastor/nun about this? They could offer you support in ways a psychiatrist couldn't. If they refer you to something you aren't comfortable with, move on to a new clergy member.
 
She's playing off Ria.
Ria suggested invoking Christ's name when the energies attack her...

Adds more fuel to the discussion.
 
She's playing off Ria.
Ria suggested invoking Christ's name when the energies attack her...

Adds more fuel to the discussion.
playing her off how? and i had attempted doing this before, and it worked sometimes, and sometimes it didnt...

are you and uberogo not revealing something about yourselves?
 
Like I said, I know there is nothing I can do or say to help u make this stop,

just if I can bring u any comfort by just knowing I believe u, then I hope that little bit helps.

I understand that if u try and defy them through Christian thoughts/words and deeds, it can make them madder and more threatening to u.

I think the worst part I remember feeling, was just being like a 'victim' of the oppression, like I hated having something bully or scare me when I was feeling helpless. I don't like to think of u being used as a form of entertainment to evilness, it's too bad.

Maybe mf's suggestion will help. I think it's a good one.
 
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playing her off how? and i had attempted doing this before, and it worked sometimes, and sometimes it didnt...

are you and uberogo not revealing something about yourselves?
I just think you've found someone who believes you, and since she mentioned Christ, you're going to run with the idea. Nothing about these energies having any opposition to Christ was mentioned before, yet you seem to profess alot of knowlege about these energies..
It's just curious.

I'm not evil energy, if that's what you are expecting me to reveal. Just a skeptical girl who thinks you are trying to rationalize your way through some very serious psychological issues.
 
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Like I said, I know there is nothing I can do or say to help u make this stop,

just if I can bring u any comfort by just knoing I believe u, then I hope that little bit helps.

I understand that if u try and defy them through Christian thoughts/words and deeds, it can make them madder and more threatening to u.

I think the worst part I remember feeling, was just being like a 'victim' of the oppression, like I hated having something bully or scare me when I was feeling helpless. I don't like to think of u being used as a form of entertainment to evilness, it's too bad.

Maybe mf's suggestion will help. I think it's a good one.
I am reluctant, because they will call officials up, I fear. As long as someone understands this horrible dilemma i am not entirely hopelss. i just wish i could take a picture of them, just one of them
 
I guess eh. A pic might help somehow...

Calling officials might be the ticket though... The officials I'm talking about are the high Priests etc who could remove them from yr life.

I'm at a loss to help, other than this.

As far as playing me goes, I don't believe that u r. I'm sure yr suffering, why else would u be here with this thread?

Anyways, like I said, I have experienced things that I couldn't talk about to others too, and felt abused through fear. This I can empathize with.
 
I guess eh. A pic might help somehow...

Calling officials might be the ticket though... The officials I'm talking about are the high Priests etc who could remove them from yr life.

I'm at a loss to help, other than this.

As far as playing me goes, I don't believe that u r. I'm sure yr suffering, why else would u be here with this thread?

Anyways, like I said, I have experienced things that I couldn't talk about to others too, and felt abused through fear. This I can empathize with.
This forum is proof of everything I have been trying to say. No one believes me, everyone thinks i am 1)paranoid, 2)histrionic or 3) schizophrenic
everyone hates me and my message. classic sign of greatness is persecution
 
This forum is proof of everything I have been trying to say. No one believes me, everyone thinks i am 1)paranoid, 2)histrionic or 3) schizophrenic
everyone hates me and my message. classic sign of greatness is persecution

Nobody hates you. People are confused because of the way your message is presented.
 
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I don't hate you, Womb :(
 
No one has said anything hateful to you. At most, people disbelieve your posts. I certainly don't hate you and I'd venture to say that nobody else here hates you, either.

If you think I'm being hateful to you, I am sorry. It is frustrating because to me, it is apparent that you have a mental health issue that you will not address. This could be dangerous for yourself or others.