the passion associated with 5's is avarice, and i never thought of myself as a greedy person b4 but the more i know what to look for the more i see it in myself everyday.
its a weird dynamic, but its like im greedy with my time and energy, resources etc. if someone intrudes on my space, i feel myself getting angry bc i prefer to have this boundary between myself and others, like i am afraid to care too much or get involved so i keep this distance. it doesn't really matter who or what it is, but i think because im not so good at expanding, i feel like i have to hold on to what i''ve got or ppl'll take it away.
crappy part is when your defense or offense with confrontation is the ability to withdraw and remain neutral, you don't really have a good method of dealing with these aspects of life so its a self replicating behavior. so right now im trying to just get out there more, allow myself to feel more connected to the world in general, bc whenever i push beyond my boundaries, i always feel better afterwards and the inner tension i live with seems to fade.
for awhile i was doing really good with this, then i kind of relapsed, now im headin back out again trying to just go with the flow better and not care so much about stepping on toes or picking sides, i mean its just an aspect of life really.