When I want to disappear, I just close my eyes so I can't see myself.
Indeed. I don't try to physically disappear. More so I just disappear into my own mind. If I'm not engaging with the world then usually it doesn't engage with me.
When I want to disappear, I just close my eyes so I can't see myself.
i withdraw to the point when i no longer care how far i go, emotionally and mentally distancing myself from loved ones and friends...
... and once i am to that point, i find myself wanting to connect with others again.
I understand what you mean, anica. If you feel you have to disappear, then don't neglect yourself or your needs; just remember to come back afterwards!
This is a real problem for me because most of my friends,family and neighbors all think I'm an extrovert because when I'm in my happy days I'm always joking around,smiling and seeking new adventures. However when I become to involved with people I go to withdrawal mode in which I just lock myself in my room( a bad thing to do because I tend to think of bad things and overall become so emotional), take a walk in the park,watch movies etc. But these people don't understand why I do that. One day I'm very happy, outgoing, loud and in another I become something completely different: quiet, moody, depressive and deep. In this state is when I don't know who I am but it happens so frequently that I must learn to live with.
Does anyone in these cycles perminently shed friendships? I know I have over and over. Last few have been pretty bad though.