My first round of goals all turned out differently than I expected, but deep down there is a part of me that still wants to be a professor of music composition. It is what drove me for over a decade of college and graduate school. I have the credentials, but need to build the reputation. This requires funding and networking, both of which are challenges for me. I feel most alive when I have written something to the best of my ability. I also want to make a contribution in research and teaching music to students with autism, visual impairment, and neuro-muscular issues.
In 20 years I also want to have a deep sense of peace about living and dying regardless of my external circumstances.
In 20 years I also want to have a deep sense of peace about living and dying regardless of my external circumstances.
....maybe ill have that ranch up in the moutains....and have those 9 sons... maybe ill have my lowriders...maybe ill have horses n go horseback riding...maybe ill have that gorgeous lil mexican woman that will still giggle "Aiii Papi CHulo" when i hug her n squeeze her....maybe ill still be writing her love letters and mailing the to our house "snail mail" style because it shows how much i care when i take the time to sit and write it by hand...or maybe its just cuz im badass...maybe ill be making time for my family because i earn my living as a author...maybe ill have my cake AND eat it too....cuz its MY life...maybe i wont be breathing, yet ill never die...because i will live on through the words i have written down for others to read....or maybe its just cuz im badass?..who knows....those things might happen..maybe 
