Kaipaus
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What does it mean to believe in God? In what do you believe if you believe in God? How do you know that you "believe" and not just hope for the best? Could hope and faith be essentially the same thing? Can you make a conscious decision to believe in God?
I've been wondering about these questions since it seems that people think of religious faith in such different ways. One person may say they're an atheist when they are actually what another person would call an agnostic or even a believer. And someone who says they believe in God, doesn't really "believe" in the sense that someone else would expect them to.
I believed in God all my childhood and youth. It felt so clear that God exists. Then I for some reason decided to stop believing in God. I noticed that my thinking included flaws and I felt like I could no longer assume that there is a god. I would have believed in God still, but I stopped praying and started calling myself an atheist, and little by little, I found that I really didn't believe in God anymore. Strangely, atheism was a decision.
But I felt a craving to believe in God and I read Christian-themed books and I started praying again. I decided to start believing in God again. And it kind of worked. These days I pray and I call myself a theist but every now and then I stop and think to myself: how can I be sure that I really believe in God? What if I just pretend to believe and don't really believe? What if I just hope that God exists but don't really believe it?
I must admit that I don't believe in God in the same way as I believe that I have a lovely dog who sometimes in the night curls up next to me. I have lost my childlike faith for ever. I do, however, see the world very differently than I did when I called myself an atheist. It's very difficult to explain how the world is different now. It's like... everything has a purpose and there are things that are infinitely valuable and every moment has a real meaning, whereas as an atheist I felt like nothing really matters and that whatever happens will be but a coincidence. So, believing in God is not just believing in some bearded thing (I don't believe that God has a bread, btw) who created everything and handed down a set of rules for us humans to follow. Believing in God means believing in a whole different universe than an atheist would believe in. God is not a "thing" inside the world-- God changes the world.
I surely hope that no one will recognise me on this forum now as I'm writing about such personal experiences... But this issue really intrigues me on an intellectual level. Please, share your thoughts, wether you're atheists or theists.
I've been wondering about these questions since it seems that people think of religious faith in such different ways. One person may say they're an atheist when they are actually what another person would call an agnostic or even a believer. And someone who says they believe in God, doesn't really "believe" in the sense that someone else would expect them to.
I believed in God all my childhood and youth. It felt so clear that God exists. Then I for some reason decided to stop believing in God. I noticed that my thinking included flaws and I felt like I could no longer assume that there is a god. I would have believed in God still, but I stopped praying and started calling myself an atheist, and little by little, I found that I really didn't believe in God anymore. Strangely, atheism was a decision.
But I felt a craving to believe in God and I read Christian-themed books and I started praying again. I decided to start believing in God again. And it kind of worked. These days I pray and I call myself a theist but every now and then I stop and think to myself: how can I be sure that I really believe in God? What if I just pretend to believe and don't really believe? What if I just hope that God exists but don't really believe it?
I must admit that I don't believe in God in the same way as I believe that I have a lovely dog who sometimes in the night curls up next to me. I have lost my childlike faith for ever. I do, however, see the world very differently than I did when I called myself an atheist. It's very difficult to explain how the world is different now. It's like... everything has a purpose and there are things that are infinitely valuable and every moment has a real meaning, whereas as an atheist I felt like nothing really matters and that whatever happens will be but a coincidence. So, believing in God is not just believing in some bearded thing (I don't believe that God has a bread, btw) who created everything and handed down a set of rules for us humans to follow. Believing in God means believing in a whole different universe than an atheist would believe in. God is not a "thing" inside the world-- God changes the world.
I surely hope that no one will recognise me on this forum now as I'm writing about such personal experiences... But this issue really intrigues me on an intellectual level. Please, share your thoughts, wether you're atheists or theists.
