- Apr 6, 2009
If ever things are going well, I always have an underlying desire to throw a spanner in the works. Never been sure why. If, in a relationship, I feel like I am liked more than I like (which hasn't been true often, but which my perspective asserts is true), I am cold, or I withdraw until "balance" is restored. I used to do this anyway, when I was younger. It was almost like, hey, I'm confused and have an intrinsic guilt and doubt as to whether I deserve happiness, so I'll stop this before it starts and make you unhappy too. Terrible stuff!