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Update:
I understand now why being called an ENFP was so upsetting to me now.
I've known a lot of ENFPs with bipolar and I conflated the two.
My mother, sister and father all had bipolar and the trauma that their undiagnosed illnesses had on me has made me terrified of ever being like them.
I've been assessed multiple times to make sure that I don't have bipolar myself and the consensus is that I do not, but instead, ADHD which often gets confused for each other.
So the "trigger" here was the idea that I was bipolar, but more core,
That I was the type of person to be irresponsible, irrationally emotional and only care about myself. I understand that bipolar is a disorder and not who someone is but it's often hard to untangle the two.
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I understand now why being called an ENFP was so upsetting to me now.
I've known a lot of ENFPs with bipolar and I conflated the two.
My mother, sister and father all had bipolar and the trauma that their undiagnosed illnesses had on me has made me terrified of ever being like them.
I've been assessed multiple times to make sure that I don't have bipolar myself and the consensus is that I do not, but instead, ADHD which often gets confused for each other.
So the "trigger" here was the idea that I was bipolar, but more core,
That I was the type of person to be irresponsible, irrationally emotional and only care about myself. I understand that bipolar is a disorder and not who someone is but it's often hard to untangle the two.
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My guess is that you are the stable one in the family. . you always seem very loving and caring, not traits I would associate with a bipolar disorder
I have been reading a book about dealing with people you love who have bipolar and how to help them, and in reading the book, I realized
My mom, my dad, my sister and my cousin all have the classic symptoms of bipolar. My sister and cousin are diagnosed and my parents aren't.
This makes a lot of sense.
Especially in the context as why I mistyped as intj. In comparison to my family, I'm very aloof and emotionally stable. They often called me a sociopath and that I didn't have normal emotions.
Little did I know they had EXTREME emotions. This is why I didn't want to be typed as an F because I associated F types with extreme bipolar emotions.
Man though... Being raised only around bipolar people really screwed me up. Lots of trauma there. Not feeling safe with your family or where you live your entire life really fucks with you.
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Jesus Fuck, slant, I do not envy you.
The amazing person that's come out the other end of that, though, is all the more special for having endured it.
My ex is bipolar (type 1), and I've been on the receiving end of all the crazy shit that entails, so I understand your aversion completely.
My ex and my daughter - diagnosed. Not easy people to live with. Like living with hurricanes..
Which is saying a lot, bc I'm a moody broody 4 - infj T
Which is saying a lot, bc I'm a moody broody 4 - infj T
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It's made a warrior out of you, Misty <3
Moving out I think is going to really help me recover from the trauma. I've been having space with my family and now I'll be able to choose if I see them or not. When I'm away from them I never fight with anybody and I'm always "shocked" at normal behavior.
Like I pranked my friend and pretended his laptop got stolen when I was watching it and he was just like
"Well I can get it replaced"
And I was expecting a bipolar reaction where he yelled at me and told me I was a piece of shit and how could I do this to him etc.
But no he reacted normally and I was like "OMG you're so cool for not freaking out" and he was like "why would I?"
Expecting irrational behavior is so engrained in me
u wot m8Oh my god. You shared this.
lol I don't relate to the INFJ description at all actually. Probably more INTP (with the exception of the foul smelling crab part)
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To add to the confusion, my friend typed me as an ENFJ last night which makes sense to me
Oh for fuck's sake
You've got INFP eyes, slant, you are INFP (which is a nice type).
Unless you are in chameleon mode, than that makes you an xNFJ.
I would question why it really matters so much to pin down ones type. It's a theory, not a science. And it will never give you definitive insight into who you are. There will likely always be aspects of your type that you don't agree with. Because it's just a category and people aren't so easily defined that way.
@acd I'm trying to find my identity right now it's a very confusing time and I'm trying to understand why others are interpreting me in different ways and why my internal sense doesn't seem to match up with external interpretations
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That's how I hope you stay
You're you, you-you
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The Ego: You've got a strong Inner Self and a need for projection and understanding.
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