I think this may be the case. You cared and are bothered by it enough that you came here. You are reaching out. Have you ever felt love for someone? I don't mean sadness if they leave, I mean happiness when they are there. Not relating to happiness that you can manipulate them to get something. It can be any type of love. Platonic or not.
I have experienced love before, i've had long-term relationships, but no more than three years, they always end before that time, you be with someone for that long, you get to know them and reading skills are at instant and when they start lying or hiding stuff you just know it, you can feel it, and that is why since then, i am just not able to be in another relationship or in love for that matter, i would be lying if i said i haven't been trying to, but it just doesn't work, i just don't feel anymore.
Of course there was more to my story, I've had a very difficult childhood when i was young and i didn't know much, don't know my father still and my mother i only met after i was 7 years old, my grandma was taking care of me and i was being bullied a lot in school and out of it for several years, i was the black sheep and regardless of that i have always protected the others who were getting bullied the same way but that only ended up even more badly, me being bullied more than most can handle, i've had this face everybody wanted to punch and for many years they did, if i knew what i know now, i would have guessed they were either having a very bad parents alcoholics or whatever that caused them to become sociopaths, i got numerous knife cuts, they were doin that just so they can maintain fear in people so they can bully even more, making them too afraid to seek help.
That kept going on for years, until one day i was again beaten to the ground with blood everywhere, and this time instead of crying i started smiling, and since then i don't have fear of anything, i just don't feel it, then i started fighting back and thats what made me a strong character now, i'm pretty sure there's nothing i can't handle, my country is highly corrupted and most cops are dirty, most of my friends in there are good people but still every single one is an outlaw, and we've seen many of the bloody, of the bad and of the pure evil situations, some of it experienced, some of it i wouldn't wish to anyone.
I value many things and i'm in control, i didn't share my story at first because most people would say that i actually became a sociopaths, i've seen sociopaths and i'm not one of them.
Well he certainly hasn't effectively manipulated any of us into believing he's a psychopath... lol
Not here to manipulate, but to get a better understanding, perhaps i'm just a toughed up INFJ.
I think there's more to your story...
That being said, it bares taking time to point out to you that regardless of your self-evaluated INFJ traits, (there are several knowledgeable individuals here versed in cognitive ability/disability btw), you have joined a forum of many INFJ's in the process of healing from others with psycopathic and sociopathic traits, aka victims of twisted abusers. With that in mind, if you are indeed here to learn we all would appreciate that the lines of quality communications and mutual respect be adhered to while you're here to do the learning.
If you are here for malicious intent or lines of communication start to lean that way standard ban processes will apply. Otherwise welcome
Please read the forum rules and guidelines as to avoid any confusion of what is acceptable and what is not. We enjoy others' points of view here, however there is a low tollerance for bullying & bullshit.
I did not come here to be malicious, but to learn more things and be in a network of people who can understand, i'm in a realization process, i have good reading skills and because of that, i'm learning psychology every day, just so i can maximize everything, or perhaps find a solution.
Psychology is the world's most important thing, psychology is everything at any time and any place, you master that, you can open the world's any door, it can help you have a great life having a good marriage and a good job, everything's in the balance of psychology, it's the program that runs into every single person's brain, like a software that connects us all. That's why i'm learning more and more.