Well hugs to you both then. This is terribly sad. People can be so cruel and uncaring sometimes. And its a vicious circle. It's all our job to fight this with love and understanding wherever/whenever we can. That's really what the "good fight" is all about.
Hmm. The maker of the video seems to think he/she is the only one dealing with such problems.
I know that pain all too well.I think many of us here can relate to this sometimes. What do you think?...
In February, it will be the second anniversary of the day God healed me of feeling like a perpetual loser.
I've been much better ever since.
I am not bad in social interactions anymore because I have worked so damn hard to be good at it.
When I was younger, I was so damn weird to talk to. I had so much conflict in my head going on all at once that I think no one had a clue what I was talking about. Grade School was ok for the most part. I was in advanced classes, but our class was small and I had fun. In Junior High things were different. I started to become really self-conscious and I just had so much conflict roiling in my head that I simply couldn't speak like a normal human being.
I got made fun of a lot for being a nerd and I was pretty unattractive to boot. I really didn't like school in the first place, but it came easily to me and I SERIOUSLY wanted to please my parents. I worked my ass off despite all this bullshit. I had a few friends that I would hang around with, but the relationships always seemed more shallow, like there were parts of myself I simply couldn't share with them.
My parents were never really there to "fill me in" on the lessons of life and so I just had to learn a lot of shit on my own. I always felt pretty distant so it was kind of like I was just some lost soul walking the face of the planet waiting to die. I really wasn't all that funny when I was younger, this was something I eventually built to help me relate to others. I constantly took things in at face value. If someone told me something then that is what I believed, I didn't look between the lines or assume a hidden agenda and that got me taken advantage of more than a few times.
Btw, I believe my older sister is HEAVY N, which I pulled extensive influence from when I was younger and looked up to her so much. I believe both my parents might be SJ's now that I think about it.
just find it hard to understand people who reject people they label as nice!
For me it was about not being able to open up even if I wanted to, but just being terrified for being approached by a stranger. Any stranger. That made most people think I didn't want them around.
Recognizing that reaction and not backing off can be a beginning of a path of healing for the lonely person.