My prior relationship, I gave everything...or almost everything. It was amazing being able to realize that there is someone who exists who i can love this much, and vice versa. But when things went very sour, it hurt a lot. Still healing from it, and not afraid to say it. I'm amazed and proud at how far I've came. I think, honestly, that I needed to love that much because that was my first relationship. Considering my doubts prior to it, that someone could ever love me or I find someone to love, it seemed like a miracle.
My current relationship, I'm holding back a bit. My bf has already fallen in love with me... yet I feel as though I'm still healing so I'm not ready to be in love with someone. I'm still on testing grounds on what is healthier for me, what is more natural. I'm an independent woman i've realized---and revel in the freedom of not being in a relationship where I'm in love. Yet, loving is a natural thing for me. I realize although I'm in a loving, good relationship right now, I miss and am sentimental over the "high" I was in when I was with my ex.