I guess I started this thread to apologize to everyone. I know on this forum, I'm either really here, or absent. I'm like that in my relationships too.
I think I'm kind of like a gypsy (apologies to anyone who is a gypsy, or who would take that offensively). I travel a lot, and can't stand to be in one place too long, but wherever I am, I'm really 100% there. I feel like the woman in Chocolat - when the wind blows east, I'm gone. When the wind blows west, I'm back again.
Maybe it was growing up in foster care, but I have a real stability issue. Not in myself, but with others. I'm very loyal, and anyone I've named as friend here, is a friend for life. But I'm the disappearing woman - here I am - blink, and I'm gone as if I was never there at all. I can't say it makes sense to me, but I really have a hard time staying put anywhere, or in any relationship at all.
So, this is really my apology to you all. I do love and care about many of you and this forum in general - because of the wonderful people in it. I just wanted you to know that. I think this disappearing thing is really a part of who I am though. I'm sorry if I've hurt any of you by it, I really don't mean to. Guess I just wanted to explain myself a bit, and let you know that if any of you reach out to me, I'll always be there for you to the best of my ability.
We'll leave the light on, and wait for you to come home.
