I can help (if we can discuss it out). For starters, why not say how you relate to whichever types you relate to and we can try to find the best pattern.
I'll try to be as short as possible.
4w5: I relate to the need of understanding things, how they work, realizing and understanding systems and intellectualizing causes around me. I often struggle with low self esteem, but I am extremely confident in my knowledge and intellect and use it as a back up when I feel insecure. I tend to analyze my feelings a lot and have tendencies towards intellectual obsessions. But the truth is, I can be superficial and unfocused at times. I often feel disconnected from the world and reality and try to withdrawn, but at the same time, I am aware of importance of social contact and my environment.
4w3: I am very image focused, I care whole lot about how others perceive. I always try to make a good impression and I am aware of social norms and expectations, but sometimes my shyness and low self-esteem holds me back. I care about attention and try to grab attention with my looks mostly. I care a lot about being attractive, I am also highly attracted to fame and popularity and I want to be very successful person. I want to be recognized and appreciated, but sometimes I can really get into whatever nevermind state of mind. When I am lazy and irresponsible and act more like a punk kid, than someone who wants be successful.
5 as my head fix.. I think I already said why and how I relate to enneagram 5 as my wing so I guess that would be enough. I am thinking about the fact, that I might be just a 4w3 with 5 in my tritype.
6 as my head fix; I can be security oriented. Sometimes I am overly anxious about possible happenings and I often feel like something bad might happen so I try to make sure I am safe and comfortable. I feel like I need a gaudience, someone who would take care of me and make me feel secure. I can be very doubtful and think a lot about different possibilities. But I am not very cautious, I often end up doing pretty silly or irresponsible things. I am not good at preparing myself to avoid the danger, I just kind of hope the denger will avoid me. I am not paranoid, I am more naive and trusting with people.
7 as my head fix; I need a lot of fun and excitement in my life. Often when something doesn't seem like fun, I'd rather not do it. I am open to new experiences and possibilities. I value freedom to explore and try out everything among the highest values in my life. I need a lot of space to enjoy things, I like fine things in my life, I like pleasure and novelty. But... I am lazy and often miss the optimism of a 7. I need someone to cheer me up to show me the possibilities and to get me into a real action, because I am mostly inactive and just dream about experiencing wonderful things in my own mind.
1 as my gut fix; I can be perfectionist when it comes to putting high ideals on myself and others. I also have very strong vision, I try to be true to. But I am not a perfectionist when it comes to anything else, I like settling and following my own rules and standards, but not anyone else's. Also, I am messy, random and don't really care about organization unless it threatens standards. But I can be self-righteous and extremely critical when I think something doesn't match my visions or expectations.
8 as my gut fix, I like to be independent and I try to create an image of a strong and individualistic person, but I don't really care about having control over anyone else, but myself. I can be aggressive, when threatened and sometimes I can be direct and even hurtful with my criticism, but I generally avoid conflict when possible.
9 as gut fix; I very much value my comfort and peace. Almost to the point of missing on, on anything else. I like my lazy days, I like my own space. I like to withdrawn and just do something nice and pleasurable. I dislike conflict, but I wouldn't think of myself as a peacemaker, because I can be rude ones something is out of it. I like to mention harmony when possible and I like to adapt to make sure everything and everyone's fine.
When it comes to variants:
I am mostly success oriented, I want to achieve my goals and plans become a better person. I am oriented on myself and how I fit into the world and making myself a better person, developing my skills and changing my ways of perception and thinking. - this is my basic orientation, I have no idea whether it's sp or sx or so. I don't relate to any of them. I don't care about relationships, I don't care about my environment or anything physical tbh... I kind of care about my social status so I guess that would make so/something.