Things I want to ask her

[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]This isn't a poem or a clever piece of writing. It's just a list of things I want to say but never will.[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Why are you leaving?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Why did you just come into my life [/FONT][FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]now[/FONT][FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Why do you have to go away when we were just getting started?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]What did you think of me?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Did you even like me?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Did I love you?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Could you ever love me?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Why can't I have you?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Could I make you happy?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Can I wait for you?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Would you ever wait for me?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Are you even real?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Is what I'm feeling real?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Will I be able to remember all the little details of you for much longer?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Can you remind of what your voice sounds like?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Can you just stand next to me once more, so I can remember your scent?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Will I remember the shape of your nose?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]The colour of your hair?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]The way you burst into giggles when a conversation goes silent?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Have you forgotten me?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Do you think about me?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Did you even know that I liked you?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Did you take pity on me?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Was it your way of being nice?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Am I just 1 in a queue of 100?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Is this all really silly?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Should I be more mature, not let my feels slide so much?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Should I just suck it up like everything else?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Should I just move on? Forget about it?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Should I get out more?[/FONT][FONT=Verdana, sans-serif] [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Train more? Wash it out in sweat?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Should I be more manly?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Should I just grow up and stop being so sensitive?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Could I be someone else?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Could I change for you?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Could I do anything to make you want me?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Is it okay that I write this list?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Is it okay that I think about you this much?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Could I hang from a noose, would that be a grand enough gesture?[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Is it right to miss something that I never really had?[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana, sans-serif]Again, sorry. Emo rant over.
[/FONT]

 

Ah! Cringe and face palm!

Forgive me, it was late. But thanks guys. Strangely enough just after I posted this, I spoke to the girl in question on facebook till 5 in the morning. I don't know if that made me felt better or worse.

 

I don't know... I feel that INFJ emotional explosion coming up again and I really wanna tell it to fuck off because it really fucked me up last time.

I can be completely honest with her though. I told her how I felt a bit pissed off that she was leaving and that I took that as a sign that she didn't give a shit, and she was like "No, silly!". She said she wants to meet up with me when she comes back. Again, I just don't wanna get my hopes up.