I think I'm in that shadow right now. That's why I'm here. Feeling very disconnected. And I'm not sure what to believe anymore. I'm sorry for anyone else going through this. It sucks.
Yes, I've experienced the shadow too. It was horrible.
I used to get nightmares all the time so I hated sleeping. I would stay up for days at a time, worrying and feeling depressed. My head felt numb and I couldn't make out what other peoples intentions were.
I was fainting at work and at school because of the lack of food that I was consuming and my blood sugars were all over the place.
I was exercising allot during my shadow phase. My thoughts were terrible, I would constantly think of suicide or some other form of self harming.
My advice to you would be find a good psychologist or counselor if you can afford it. Usually you can get a benifet through the doctor or a local mental health group. It helped me allot and it brought me back to my normal self.
Remember to get plenty of rest if you can.
Being a shadow can tire you out quickly; mentally, physically and spiritually.
Hang in there though, you'll pull through.
