For a few years now my grandmother has told me I need to do less rationalizing and more listening to my intuition. However, I find that listening too much to my uninhibited intuition actually makes me physically ill. When I go into intuition mode it creates a sort of stimulation which causes my thoughts and feelings to race in a million different directions, my mind seems to begin to deteriorate at a rapid pace as I begin to lose sense of what is what, I become more and more filled with fear and anxiety as I begin to think I am losing myself in the current, and finally all that mental strain translates to fatigue, nausea, etc. within my body.
On the other hand, if I intensely focus my intuition on a single feeling or thought, I can sometimes gain profound spiritual insight, almost like I'm listening to God. But this has a drawback as well. I might begin to obsess about a feeling or thought, introspectively analyzing it over and over as I try to attain an even better understanding of it. I've often thought of this as "ghost mode" intuition because its almost like I can sense the subjectivity of my own reality from the outside looking in. If I focus too intensely, it's like every hair on my body is standing on end and I'm entering an entirely different plane of existence. This can create a profound amount of fear within me and the sense that I'm on the verge of dying. It also creates auditory and visual hallucinations and I sense presences that just aren't there.
Last week, more as a joke than anything else, I made some intuitive predictions for one of my friends about where his life was going. He showed up at my door a couple days ago, completely distraught, and claiming all my predictions came true. He was convinced I had some sort of psychic gift. I told him that predictions are like horoscopes and they are just vague enough that people can read their situations into them after the fact, but he is compelled to believe that my predictions were spot on and he keeps trying to get me to make more. I won't do it because it simply makes me physically and psychologically ill to do it. I mean, come on, when you are throwing up and seeing things, that means you are doing something that isn't good for you!
Has anyone else had experiences like these? If you allow yourself, do you ever get so overwhelmed by your intuition that it starts to decay your mind with fear?
On the other hand, if I intensely focus my intuition on a single feeling or thought, I can sometimes gain profound spiritual insight, almost like I'm listening to God. But this has a drawback as well. I might begin to obsess about a feeling or thought, introspectively analyzing it over and over as I try to attain an even better understanding of it. I've often thought of this as "ghost mode" intuition because its almost like I can sense the subjectivity of my own reality from the outside looking in. If I focus too intensely, it's like every hair on my body is standing on end and I'm entering an entirely different plane of existence. This can create a profound amount of fear within me and the sense that I'm on the verge of dying. It also creates auditory and visual hallucinations and I sense presences that just aren't there.
Last week, more as a joke than anything else, I made some intuitive predictions for one of my friends about where his life was going. He showed up at my door a couple days ago, completely distraught, and claiming all my predictions came true. He was convinced I had some sort of psychic gift. I told him that predictions are like horoscopes and they are just vague enough that people can read their situations into them after the fact, but he is compelled to believe that my predictions were spot on and he keeps trying to get me to make more. I won't do it because it simply makes me physically and psychologically ill to do it. I mean, come on, when you are throwing up and seeing things, that means you are doing something that isn't good for you!
Has anyone else had experiences like these? If you allow yourself, do you ever get so overwhelmed by your intuition that it starts to decay your mind with fear?
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