Though I find because of this behaviour that I am not surrounded by a massive circle of friends to go out with and so on, but the friends I do have are true. it doesn't stop me from wishing I was the sort of person who could deal with shallowness just once in a while and have a bit of fun.
I am thankful for who I am and the way I am; wouldn't want to change for the world, unless it were in danger, of course. My life is interesting and seldom boring; my mind, a playground for endless thoughts. My heart is as gold as I can make it with the help from above and others that walk in light. I trust you would not want to change, either.
A friend asked me, "How's life?" Guess that could start the answer. My life is rewarding, but people take advantage of my kindness to such an extent I sometimes think of them as selfish or simply disliking me. I immediately challenge those thoughts as not becoming, sinking back to my somewhat dismal way of life I feel few understand. Is it really dismal? No. Am I really sinking? No. I simply love helping others, but somewhat detest others that run people down only to try and make themselves look better to unsuspecting onlookers. When they personally attack a loved one with their kindergarden words and first grade thoughts, they see a little bit more of my serious side few care to see. I do not seek revenge, but do allow them to wallow in the mud they have made. I would help them out of the mud, but they must bend to such a lowly status to themselves as asking forgiveness and admitting wrongdoing; something I see as a good quality in a person. Others may see it as a weakness. I feel they are wrong. Forgive them? Of course, but I can still detest the act of wrongdoing or naysaying as I go.
People are people and subject to human frailties. I must now stand up for the one that has been attacked. There can still be time for fun and time for enjoyment, but the time spent enjoying oneself is such more quality time with a clear consciousness about.
Something I have learned: The
reasons people can't help with a specific situation,
seem to be the very things I cannot do for myself
because of the very same specific situation. I speak of priorities in a round-about way and hope someone out there can understand without all the details.
I think it is simply easier to speak what one feels others can accept more readily.