Oh yeah, all the time. I feel that way about school, getting a job, money and coming out. The thing with school is that I don't think it is challenging me in the way that I want to be challenged. I need something deeper and more subjective. Maybe a science degree is just not in my nature after all.
I feel like there is this whole world out there that I just don't want to be apart of nor do I feel that I completely belong. I feel that I am very different from most people. It's not that I'm like a genius or anything, there are people that blow me out of the water so I know it's not some sort of weird academic gift that makes me different. Sometimes I think that I see the world differently. Maybe that's an introvert thing, an intuitive thing, an infj thing, a gay thing or something else completely different yet that difference is a barrier for me because it's hard to explain what is making me not want to move in the direction everyone else wants to.