Hey buddy I really feel sorry that you're feeling depressed, please don't give up on yourself, believe in your gifts, think that these experiences only make you stronger. I know that right now everything seems dark and no escape but you got to understand that we are sensitive people dude, I know how it feels like to be a sensitive guy with a clear disadvantage in society of how our gender is supposed to act. Don't worry, people out there don't know what they're saying, they got no idea on what blessing they have for having you in their lifetime.
I send you my dearest and sincerest good energy onto you and hope that this cloud of darkness goes through quick. I'm sure that you'll be ok, we'll be ok buddy don't you worry about it. Be strong!