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  • Hey.. That "What song reminds you of a member" thread keeps freezing my computer, so I didn't get to listen to the one you posted for me. What band is that and what's the song? And, thanks for thinkin of me!
    YES!!! Hopefully by that time, Uberrogo will be back from Iraq and Bored Now said she'll be in the midwest this spring.. we can all raise hades. I am down for this for sure, though.
    Nice!
    It was the video that got me, actually. I totally pictured you touring and having a blast like these guys.
    Hiya! And as for my posting I shan't be here nearly as much as I used to be. I won't let it become an addiction.
    I like mortal enemies sent to destroy each other! The lack of ego is a very beneificial attribute. :D
    Oh, I was quite emotional from the combination of having rejected love (Really opening up to someone after 8 years, at that) and quitting smoking, which creates quite an expansive set of emotions to play around with. :D

    I hate for people to think that I am fake though, I never knowingly deceive, it is all unknown to my conscious state, I am only finding this out through introspection.
    LOL I get used to suppressing this type of thought because most everyone finds it so freaking annoying! It still goes on in my head constantly though. It is a tough habbit to break not externalizing it.

    As I get over my social anxiety, what is so obvious to me may become more observable to others. :D
    I dismissed my bias of N vs S and looked at it with new eyes to determine if my original interpretation was incorrect. Turns out it wasn't incorrect according to the majority of people that I talk to.

    This means that people I assumed might be S are not longer under assumption in my eyes. I look beyond the trivialities we see every day. While I may have hosted "experiments" in my life to challenge that idea and I say things I don't necessarily mean, that doesn't constitute my entire being, even if I tricked myself.
    My trip is more or less over now, and it was pretty interesting. Here's a summary:
    I soaked 100 seeds in water for about 3 hours. Even then, they were hard to chew, and tasted like shit. I took a nap, and when I woke up it still hadn't hit me (or my digestive system). Only during class did my stomach start churning, causing me to run to the bathroom. So far not so good, but finally I felt the psychological effects. I had trouble paying attention to the lecture, but I became more aware of my senses. I started humming music, and it sounded unusually beautiful.

    Things got *really* interesting when I went to sleep. I had the most vivid dreams of my life. I was in a 3d Super Mario-esque game, among other scenarios.

    Due to the relatively small dose and not knowing what to expect, my account probably isn't that interesting. I wanted to play it safe, since I'm on antidepressants. But I plan to do it again, maybe this weekend. 100 seeds gone, 2900 to go =)
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