Right now certain things have happened last year that i don't have the courage, detachment and maybe the time to talk about it, are starting to shape certain parts of my mindset, like never, ever before. Also lots of things happening, new people coming, all at once, i can't seem to hold on into previous thoughts/patterns as i did before. I've been able to get more open about certain things as i get more self assured and confident, also a creative "explosion" with music and my songs are starting to shape up like i wanted to and struggled for so many years, painting with watercolors, parties, interesting people, new bandmates/musical partners, awesome books that i've been reading, doing fairly well at my job, feeling like i'm glowing sometimes, also low days that make me realize the need and the drive to shake off this residual psychological trauma/shame bullshit, and how the world turns up to be way more interesting than what it seemed to be years ago.
I'm pretty optimistic about this overall, although my head is straight, i know where to go, but it's a long way.