Type Me

I suppose before I get too cozy here, I'll get down to business. The online tests have been a loose canon. A lot of members in the MBTI community say to take it with a grain of salt. I've been scored as INTP on numerous occasions. On a few tests it has come up INTJ and INFJ. However, I can't agree with the INTP and INTJ style, both from visiting the forums and reading the descriptions. The funny thing is, after that venture I score as ISTP in the online tests. I agree strongly with ISTP, but there are some traits that just don't fit no matter how I look at it. INFJ was the next stab in the dark. However, it felt, tame. I'm indifferent in what I think of it. Recently, a friend that majored in MBTI says I'm an INFJ. So I no longer know what to think. Incidentally, it's the reason I'm here. Perhaps if I can finally understand MBTI I might be able to grasp this strange species known as human.

"Upon a pedestal I place myself to be judged by ye all, I beseech ye, grant me mercy!"

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Based on your experience, what do these quirks qualify as?

As a kid, I wanted to be everyone's friend. I loved to see people laugh, even at my own expense. If I could help another person and they benefited from it, that's all that mattered. It was my job to pick up the slack when someone else failed. Conflict was to be avoided if at all possible. I was too afraid to think what I thought of someone unless they crossed the line for the final time. I spent most of my youth nieve. I assume this is an ISFJ archetype.

10 years later, I'm different. My introverted side - I would like to say I am an optimist through pessimism. If everything that can go wrong has some planned scenario (yeah right), I can enjoy without worrying. If something goes wrong in the heat of the moment, I lock up and I'm left analyzing it until I've plotted different ways to deal with it. When planning I'm not specific, I try to plan as many thresholds and scenarios as I can. Textbook just doesn't cut it. I'm very unorthodox in my methods. In my head, I'm my own worst enemy. There are times when thoughts and ideas flow like a movie in my head and they play themselves out. This is unusual and I can't explain it.

Extraverted side - There is nothing that I can't copy. If I see something someone else does, I will copy it, adapt it to my own needs, and improve upon it. I have a bad habit of reporting my results to the other person so they can improve their own skills. They don't like it. I love competition at my own skill level, they'll force me to think up something new. I believe in fair play. If my competition is weaker, I will handicap myself. If they are superior, there is no point in even bothering - I'll walk away.

People side - People are of particular interest to me. I most enjoy studying there interactions. It's something I rarely engage in, I spend most of my time alone and I've no desire to change this. There are times I can read a person's mind and predict what they'll do before it's done. Why, I'm not sure. There are times it plays out like a movie. At times I'll see variables in humans that I can't make out or understand well.

Berserker side - A fair warning is given that another's words, and it is almost always another's words, that I'll go postal on them if they don't backoff. It feels like rage, but it isn't blind - it's extremely controlled and focused. My senses seem very alive during this state. My prey won't win.

Personal Beliefs - The truth speaks for itself. It's easier to maintain than a lie. Never step on another person if it can be avoided. Everyone has there own rights, but I also have mine. I am just as selfish as the next person. Retreat at the most convenient times, otherwise escalate a situation as much as another person pushes it. If they won't back off, go berserker. Stay quiet and study other people before saying anything. Everyone has a weakness that can be exploited if they cross the line. Know as many useful scenarios as possible. Useless scenarios are pointless. I would much rather not say what I think about people. There insistance or crossing the line will result in brutal honesty. Depending on my mood, I either feel ashamed or take great delight in such behavior. I don't want to attack my opponent until they've struck first. That way, I have every right to see them crash and burn. On the one hand, I love matching my competition, but I do not like slaughtering them or being slaughtered. If I could, I would rather avoid it altogether.

Persona - My normal facial expression is blank. Chuckling, laughing, smirking and stupid grins take the place of a smile. I'm either very quiet or very talkative - each one is to the extreme. I'm either very submissive or very aggressive.

Style - Active. Very active. The more active I am and the more projects I have the better. If they are overwhelming I collapse, but eventually complete them. If I have no projects, I feel utterly bored. And boredom is my enemy. Sadly, I find myself in ruts of boredom quite frequently. I can only rehash the same thing so many times before it loses its use and I'm forced to move on. That sense of mystery is a must.

Based on MBTI descriptions, this sounds like an ISTP or an ENTP. A friend majoring in this says it is INFJ, so as before, I'm at a loss. I appear to be all over the board in this.

 

I appear to be a loosed cannon, I suppose I'll stick around here to find out, hopefully. As for what I don't agree with, ISTP advocates high risk thrills to know that they're alive. I don't need this. INFJs are people pleasers - I don't need this either. If a situation doesn't go as planned, have either a fight or flight reflex. Take it head on, or cut losses and retreat. Normally, the former is only in regards to other people, strangely enough.

 

I would rather not stoke a fire.