People Who Evaluate People On Their "Achievements/Success"

I hate condescending teachers who favor students are just naturally brighter than others, and they don't put much effort into students who are slower but try to do well =_=. Ugh, like my AP Calc teacher. When I ask her about something, she just says "You can't do blahblah, how many times do I have to say this?" I'm sorry I don't excel in the academics of mathematics. UGH.



And there are also people who suddenly view you so differently if you become "successful" in their eyes...I haven't changed into a different person. I'm so annoyed by people who see others' values in how much money they make, etc. The only thing that really matters to me is their personality...esp. how considerate/sensitive they are to others' feelings...and then mostly if we just get along.

It makes me want to become a world dictator or "really successful" in the eyes of society, the norm "celebrity status" or smth to kind of shove it back in my teachers' faces. Although I don't think I'll actually do that 'cause I have no interest in great amounts of $ or high social status.

 

I actually really want to do well in AP Calculus. Because it's a bitch to learn, and the first math class I have to actually really pay attention in, it kind of makes me want to do above just "okay." And I really do try. In class, I pay attention, take notes, and then I usually go in after school to do my homework so she's there if I have answers and she also has a notebook for the answers for hw so I can try to figure it out if I can't get it...but it's just that she's made it so I feel so scared and unwilling to ask her now. But it'd be SO much easier if I could feel a little more comfortable with asking her, 'cause it beats redoing a prob for 20 minutes and trying to "figure it out" =_=. It makes me mad. When other kids she likes more asks her constantly, she responds happily and is really enthusiastic to help.

Ugh.

Your professor sounds anal =_=. Zomg, look at me, I'm a professor, don't you DARE call me by my first name!

 

AP Calculus and AP US History has made me experience smth I haven't before...which is that I'm the one in need of extra help, who doesn't "get it" the fastest, etc. Sorry if it sounds like I'm arrogant x_X. I used to be arrogant in this aspect though. I looked down on people who didn't understand things as quickly as me and I was unwilling to help. This year though, I'm much more willing to help other people, even if it takes up my free time, and I respect those who try really hard even if they might not be naturally gifted in certain subjects.

I also miss zoning out in class and then just trying to figure out what's going on when I'm doing hw/before tests though . Having AP Calc first period...only one hour after waking up, is full of BAWWWW.

I don't think I'm very good at math though ^^;. I just started taking Algebra 1-2 earlier because I passed this one test...but honestly I'm not really good at math x.X. It annoys me when people think I'm so smart and get good grades easily though, because I do have to work hard D:

 

Yeah...I guess I'm very optimistic in being able to pick out things I've learned from bad experiences..^^; although I'm also greedy and wish I could have it all (learning new things+not having bad experience) but it's already happened, so meh.

It's for the whole year, actually. I've never heard/taken math classes that was only one semester o.o are there classes like that at your school?