hi guys. Wouldnt post this here unless I really had to and I do. I'm probably going insane soon so yeah. Its a bout a girl as such topics usually are ( I think )
I'll start from the beginning. Or rather continue from my other thread about istjs haha. Long story short, when I first met this friend, I went wow. I didnt know why and still dont. Its not a physically attracted thing. Ok it was a little but other than that I had that kinda feeling of " dam I must know you " type of feel. Not romantically, but friendly. I dont usually get this type of feel for anyone. I didnt even get this feel for most of my good friends. Only a few. Anyway, I decided to ignore it but somehow got placed in the same group as her for a project ( I had nothing to do with it, swear. )
So I get to know her better and eventually like her. So for the 1st semester in school I went after her. Confusing as hell chase. Sometimes, we could talk on msn for hours, sometimes we had absolutely nothing to talk about. At that point in time, she occasionally asked me to meet her after school. ( dam..I hate remembering all this..) ( I also know that she could have asked me as a friend but at that time who knows)
Anyway, eventually, I decided to pop the question. While we were jogging. Yeah, I know, not the brightest idea but it seemed a good idea at that time. My 1st time doing something like that and all. especially since I doubted that I would have the courage to do it anyway. The running was a good idea to me as I could jog away if she said no or jog with her if she said yes ( dam this remembering is starting to suck ) . She said that she would rather stay as friends. So I said ok that works too (or something like that. I cant remember. Its been over a year ) ( oh yeah, she knew I liked her. My friend accidently said it out loud :/ )
After that, we hardly met and talked for that matter. That holiday, I disappeared off the map completely to recover. wasnt particularly enjoyable but I did. Much quicker than I expected too.
The next semester, we had contact again. a friends, her and me decided to meet for lunch as friends every week on one day to catch up and all. Eventually, we kinda grew closer again. This time stranger. We could talk like crazy and seem like best friends for a few days usually around 4-5 days then wouldnt talk to each other for the next 2 weeks or so. Then something would trigger and we would talk again for the next 4-5 days like crazy again and the cycle repeated again and again and again. But this time, different from last sem, she did not ask me to meet her after school or anything like that and I didnt ask her either. We just talked on msn.
But this time, I didnt intend to do anything. The week of valentines, I was contemplating asking her out but was discussing with my friends first. One group was saying go for it, the other saying stay the feth away from her. Thing is, that week, we were having major presentations so I decided to finish them before I decided. On one of the mornings of my presentations, while I was preparing for the presentation, she suddenly smsed me saying that I was a nice guy and all but she just wanted to be friends and that she was sorry if she gave me false impressions ( this is starting to make me regret again ) . Obviously, it was a great big shock but I couldnt let it affect me as I had that big presentation in about an hour. Thankfully, the presentation went well. very well. my part got commended by my lecturer. Then I started thinking and reading the sms through.
Same thing. I disappeared during the holis. which was just until a few weeks back. Now I'm back in school and wondering what the feth is happening. Since we used to run last sem, I thought I should ask them if they were interested in running together again. This includes her. I'm asking as a friend.( during the holis, I was reading urbanmonk as I stumbled on here and this helped me get over her greatly).
Nothing happened at that time. The next day, during my 1st lecture, she was sitting outside my lecture theater, 'cos her close friend had a class nearby so she sent her friend there and went there to sit to do some stuff. Nothing wrong. I met her later that day at the swimming pool when I went to train with some guy friends. She had already told me that she was swimming there at that time. Nothing wrong. The next day, she helped her friend ask me where her class was as I could be from the school that her friend had to go to ( My school is new in the campus so its a little confusing for everybody right now) nothing wrong. The next day, she asked me if I was in school and to help her tie her tie. Yeah. I helped her but my head was beginning to think wth is going on here. I cant be the only one who knows how to tie a tie right? Then last night, we were talking on msn about her joining a sport. She seemed very very hesitant to join so I was asking her why she was hesitating and all. She answered saying she didnt like to make new friends and all and that no one wanted to go with her. Then she asked if I wanted to go with her. Alarm bells rang like crazy as my emotions went from no wind, to a class F5 tornado.
Thankfully for my friend that I immediately contacted, my friend told me exactly what to reply. If not for her, I think I would have died. So, I'm not going with her afterall.( I got work on that day now anyway). I have no idea if she was being serious or just kidding or asking as a friend or otherwise for that matter. confused as hell now.
thanks for reading this dam long rant. I got no idea what to do now of what shes doing. Anything would be helpful. thanks again. and sorry if i just wasted your time :/
I'll start from the beginning. Or rather continue from my other thread about istjs haha. Long story short, when I first met this friend, I went wow. I didnt know why and still dont. Its not a physically attracted thing. Ok it was a little but other than that I had that kinda feeling of " dam I must know you " type of feel. Not romantically, but friendly. I dont usually get this type of feel for anyone. I didnt even get this feel for most of my good friends. Only a few. Anyway, I decided to ignore it but somehow got placed in the same group as her for a project ( I had nothing to do with it, swear. )
So I get to know her better and eventually like her. So for the 1st semester in school I went after her. Confusing as hell chase. Sometimes, we could talk on msn for hours, sometimes we had absolutely nothing to talk about. At that point in time, she occasionally asked me to meet her after school. ( dam..I hate remembering all this..) ( I also know that she could have asked me as a friend but at that time who knows)
Anyway, eventually, I decided to pop the question. While we were jogging. Yeah, I know, not the brightest idea but it seemed a good idea at that time. My 1st time doing something like that and all. especially since I doubted that I would have the courage to do it anyway. The running was a good idea to me as I could jog away if she said no or jog with her if she said yes ( dam this remembering is starting to suck ) . She said that she would rather stay as friends. So I said ok that works too (or something like that. I cant remember. Its been over a year ) ( oh yeah, she knew I liked her. My friend accidently said it out loud :/ )
After that, we hardly met and talked for that matter. That holiday, I disappeared off the map completely to recover. wasnt particularly enjoyable but I did. Much quicker than I expected too.
The next semester, we had contact again. a friends, her and me decided to meet for lunch as friends every week on one day to catch up and all. Eventually, we kinda grew closer again. This time stranger. We could talk like crazy and seem like best friends for a few days usually around 4-5 days then wouldnt talk to each other for the next 2 weeks or so. Then something would trigger and we would talk again for the next 4-5 days like crazy again and the cycle repeated again and again and again. But this time, different from last sem, she did not ask me to meet her after school or anything like that and I didnt ask her either. We just talked on msn.
But this time, I didnt intend to do anything. The week of valentines, I was contemplating asking her out but was discussing with my friends first. One group was saying go for it, the other saying stay the feth away from her. Thing is, that week, we were having major presentations so I decided to finish them before I decided. On one of the mornings of my presentations, while I was preparing for the presentation, she suddenly smsed me saying that I was a nice guy and all but she just wanted to be friends and that she was sorry if she gave me false impressions ( this is starting to make me regret again ) . Obviously, it was a great big shock but I couldnt let it affect me as I had that big presentation in about an hour. Thankfully, the presentation went well. very well. my part got commended by my lecturer. Then I started thinking and reading the sms through.
Same thing. I disappeared during the holis. which was just until a few weeks back. Now I'm back in school and wondering what the feth is happening. Since we used to run last sem, I thought I should ask them if they were interested in running together again. This includes her. I'm asking as a friend.( during the holis, I was reading urbanmonk as I stumbled on here and this helped me get over her greatly).
Nothing happened at that time. The next day, during my 1st lecture, she was sitting outside my lecture theater, 'cos her close friend had a class nearby so she sent her friend there and went there to sit to do some stuff. Nothing wrong. I met her later that day at the swimming pool when I went to train with some guy friends. She had already told me that she was swimming there at that time. Nothing wrong. The next day, she helped her friend ask me where her class was as I could be from the school that her friend had to go to ( My school is new in the campus so its a little confusing for everybody right now) nothing wrong. The next day, she asked me if I was in school and to help her tie her tie. Yeah. I helped her but my head was beginning to think wth is going on here. I cant be the only one who knows how to tie a tie right? Then last night, we were talking on msn about her joining a sport. She seemed very very hesitant to join so I was asking her why she was hesitating and all. She answered saying she didnt like to make new friends and all and that no one wanted to go with her. Then she asked if I wanted to go with her. Alarm bells rang like crazy as my emotions went from no wind, to a class F5 tornado.
Thankfully for my friend that I immediately contacted, my friend told me exactly what to reply. If not for her, I think I would have died. So, I'm not going with her afterall.( I got work on that day now anyway). I have no idea if she was being serious or just kidding or asking as a friend or otherwise for that matter. confused as hell now.
thanks for reading this dam long rant. I got no idea what to do now of what shes doing. Anything would be helpful. thanks again. and sorry if i just wasted your time :/
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