I had a lot of friends but lost a bunch in my 20s. A few died and the others moved on. Really just my girl at this point. The way I like it. I meet people but don't want the commitment of having to be a friend. It takes a lot.
I think in the case of friendships is where I have the most detachment.
Had a lot of close friends when I was younger, but aside from deaths and some moving away, didn't keep others I had close.
Being puzzled as to why, I looked at what role I played in this, and see where I didn't put in the effort to keep them close to me.
When signing up for a Facebook page was all the rage a few years ago, I had several old classmates contact me and want to get together.
I met up with a few of them, that was fun, but some wanted to be buddy buddy again. Calling and emailing invites for me to go here or there. I just found the whole notion of doing so emotionally draining. I felt they were being clingy.
I think they began to feel I was aloof, and eventually their contacting me stopped altogether.
Do I blame them? No. But, on the other hand wish I were a part of the group.
I often wonder why putting the effort into friendships didn't seem like work when I was younger.