Hi everyone.
First off, I know that being satisfied with who you are dating is a CHOICE and that anyone can choose to do that. So, that is not the issue here- just for clarification.
The issue is figuring out what is important. (And after making a choice, sticking with it no matter what.) Which is another fear... how do you know who you pick now will be who you want to be with in 20 years? I guess the same as above, you just choose to stay happy with them no matter what?
I'm an INFJ and I'm scared I will be alone forever. Not for lack of options, perhaps due to too many options. My ex is an ENTP. I miss our talks, I miss feeling understood. Now, I think I am with an ST, and on the one hand, it's awfully nice to feel safe and secure, to not have to worry about doing the daily things of life such as taking care of the cars, bills, paperwork, cleaning, organizing, etc. He rocks at that stuff, which means less pressure for me to do it or worry about it like I felt I had to with the ENTP. The ST adores me, no doubt about it. I feel a sense of loyalty that is more intense and real than I've ever felt from anyone.
However, I am realizing I cannot have it both ways. I can be with another intuitive like an ENTP, feel like I have balance, feel understood, and have amazing conversations. He could handle me and my emotions, and my random days of tears, the ups and the downs, the extremes. But, in that life I probably would not have money, I may not have healthcare, I may have to provide financially, practically, etc. etc. for the daily living "stuff" that is trivial and annoying to ENTPs.
Or, I can have all of those daily practical living things taken care of, but not be understood, or have intuitive conversations. I will be listened to, and loved, but not understood in a way that a conversation can flow about life, meaning, purpose, and personalities. I would have an activity partner for anything I want to do, I would be safe and provided for, and the world (sensor friends and family) will approve and say that it is a "good match" because to them, it is. ST men fulfill what the sensor people in my life say they should fulfill. I grew up with their ideas, so I have respect for the ST men who know how to handle things and take care of things. Emotional depth is not one of those things though. Maybe it doesn't need to be. Maybe emotional depth with an NF and NT is too much, and then nobody is around to take care of the daily practicalities.
Or is it more important to be understood? Not just accepted and loved, but really understood on a level that fosters hours of conversation? If so, is that worth giving up acceptance from friends and family, and is it worth taking on the extra stress of having to be the more organized, on top of practical issues like making money, buying food, etc.? What happens if kids become involved? In 20 years would an INFJ still rather be understood, and be able to have deep conversations, or would she rather not have the added stress of being the more practical one? Will the intuition fade over time with an ST and nobody to feed the intuitive soul but herself and books?
Thoughts?
This is all over the place, and may not make sense to many people. Feel free to pick out one thought or idea and comment if the entire thing is too much to respond to.