My worst fear is kinda a weird one, because i have a tendency of over draining my social battery...
I don't want to get famous. It scares me because of all my trauma and the deciet i went through in my life... it would be a culture shock, I've never really had anyone i could turn to... and if i did, my "poor me" state of mind... would take over and they would think i am underestimating everyone elses... when they think this, i've come to the conclusion they don't want to talk about it and it is them who underestimate... (sadly, i don't have the poor me personality it was developed by the long term conflict in the residence of insanity.)
If any could look past that "poor me" aspect, i am only seeking advice on how to cope with it.
My current coping mechanism is closing away from everyone. If they underestimate me at my worst... then what kind of friend are they?
i mean i still care about them... but that just means that i don't have anyone... (and i lost trust in therapists...)
(this is what i mean by "poor me")
However, it is the fact that if i get famous especially before i can learn to cope better... i wouldn't know what to do... and get scared.
Another is along the lines of romance... i have a codependency problem. I cannot leave the house alone... even to the grocery store if i needed something... i was able to cope with music... however, covid struck and it's become more of a challenge.
I don't want to get famous. It scares me because of all my trauma and the deciet i went through in my life... it would be a culture shock, I've never really had anyone i could turn to... and if i did, my "poor me" state of mind... would take over and they would think i am underestimating everyone elses... when they think this, i've come to the conclusion they don't want to talk about it and it is them who underestimate... (sadly, i don't have the poor me personality it was developed by the long term conflict in the residence of insanity.)
If any could look past that "poor me" aspect, i am only seeking advice on how to cope with it.
My current coping mechanism is closing away from everyone. If they underestimate me at my worst... then what kind of friend are they?
i mean i still care about them... but that just means that i don't have anyone... (and i lost trust in therapists...)
(this is what i mean by "poor me")
However, it is the fact that if i get famous especially before i can learn to cope better... i wouldn't know what to do... and get scared.
Another is along the lines of romance... i have a codependency problem. I cannot leave the house alone... even to the grocery store if i needed something... i was able to cope with music... however, covid struck and it's become more of a challenge.
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