- MBTI
- INFJ
- Enneagram
- 4w5
I have learned some information about the guy who is basically my best friend from high school, and it deeply upsets me. Basically, he uses and abuses girls. He acts nice, but he then cheats on them. He has most people fooled.
He had me fooled, for years. I defended him at first. WHY THE SJDFSKD!!! Why doe he act that way? I have known him forever, but I'm realizing that people are just objects to him. He is nice to me, and I eat it up. I am an object to him.
Did people dislike me because I stood by him while almost everyone else in the class saw through him? Was I the oblivious moron? High school was a terrible enough experience on its own, but now I am seeing that everything was a lie too. I feel like it was my fault that I was so lonely and that I am so lonely. Did he really mean it when he made my promise not to kill myself? I am not female and cannot read emotions or facial expressions exceptionally well. I don't know the truth. I do not know who lies and who is honest, so I should just assume that everyone is a liar. Someone has manipulated me, whether it was him, the girls he dated, the clique that I could never join. They all could have been manipulating each other, and I just got caught in the crossfire.
I am angry, and I hate people. I hate life, and I hate myself. I am so tired of being alone, and I just keep failing. Nobody cares anyway.
We are supposed to be a type that takes pleasure in helping people, but I have trouble bringing myself to see why I should help anyone. Why should I care? Why should I help anyone?
This makes me wonder if everything in my life now is a lie. I am so lonely. I see perfect people easily navigating their way through life, and I feel like I can never have a normal life. I feel like it is my fault.
He had me fooled, for years. I defended him at first. WHY THE SJDFSKD!!! Why doe he act that way? I have known him forever, but I'm realizing that people are just objects to him. He is nice to me, and I eat it up. I am an object to him.
Did people dislike me because I stood by him while almost everyone else in the class saw through him? Was I the oblivious moron? High school was a terrible enough experience on its own, but now I am seeing that everything was a lie too. I feel like it was my fault that I was so lonely and that I am so lonely. Did he really mean it when he made my promise not to kill myself? I am not female and cannot read emotions or facial expressions exceptionally well. I don't know the truth. I do not know who lies and who is honest, so I should just assume that everyone is a liar. Someone has manipulated me, whether it was him, the girls he dated, the clique that I could never join. They all could have been manipulating each other, and I just got caught in the crossfire.
I am angry, and I hate people. I hate life, and I hate myself. I am so tired of being alone, and I just keep failing. Nobody cares anyway.
We are supposed to be a type that takes pleasure in helping people, but I have trouble bringing myself to see why I should help anyone. Why should I care? Why should I help anyone?
This makes me wonder if everything in my life now is a lie. I am so lonely. I see perfect people easily navigating their way through life, and I feel like I can never have a normal life. I feel like it is my fault.