I was rejected by my family, except for my brother and sister. But my mom and my dad treat me like shit. My mom systematically used to ignore me for years at a time. I used to sit in my room and listen to her talk shit about me to my siblings. Her favorite thing to call me was a creep and laugh at me whenever I tried to talk. She used to make up lies about me to other family members to make me appear as a horrible person. As I got older I realized there was nothing wrong with me, my mom was the one with issues and for some reason she wanted to convince me there was something inherently wrong with me. As a result I just wonder around, I find love everywhere I go but I wish I was close to someone. So when it comes to rejection, well... it depends. The kind of rejection that hurts the most comes from people I start to believe are my "family", and then I realize they don't love me at all. So I am wondering around trying to find a family that I'm not sure I'll ever find. Whenever I call a friend and they don't instantly call me back or answer the phone, I start immediately assuming they think I'm a fucking creep or something. I start to think all my friends are talking shit about me. Then they call me back and much of my insecurities diminish. But it doesn't matter how much they prove they are my friend, if they aren't there at a seconds notice, I instantly start thinking the worst. So I've been finding lately it's easier to make friends with strangers and let them see only the surface. But yeah... I guess in conclusion. I don't handle rejection well. And I have an issue with assuming I'm being rejected.