Fear of failure?

Failure is normal and to be expected. I fear success. It seems that the when people depend on you, you get more responsibilities, which means that people expect more and more and more and more. It becomes a vicious cycle. I cringe when I hear "If anyone can accomplish this it is you" or "you are so organized and efficient" because that is usually right before or right after someone dumps a bunch of crap on me to get done. So, logically it seems that one should be more afraid of success. Of course, the more you do, the more chances you have of being wrong or failing.

 

Yes, the fear of failure is strong within this ENTP.

Failure is nothing new to me though, Ive been failing since elementary school, my grades were so poor that I didn't even pass.
My teachers used to make a laughing stock out of me, I was called stupid and labeled as a failure. So its been childhood fear of mine. The fear of failure and the pressure to preform well was one hell of a burden for a kid to carry. It got to the point where I would cheat during tests just to get into the next grade. Being from a large family of 10 has also made an impact, I felt as a child the only way to get my parents attention was through my intelligence, so when I started failing school and watching my class mates take leaping through the education system, I would do just about anything to pass, from staying in during lunch breaks to staying in after school for hours on end. But in the end my depression and anxiety took over.

I was considered a nuisance and a thorn in the backside, I questioned the education system, and during the middle of classes, the teachers and the way how they taught. Its no surprise why I was often sent to the handicapped room for the special needs children. I put on a brave face but underneath was a completely different story. My true face came out during the two years I failed art school.

As for making mistakes, I don't regret them. I learn from them. I've realized that to get anywhere in life you need to make mistakes, recognizing our mistakes is half of the battle won, its a risk that we take. I welcome mistakes, that doesn't mean that I don't get frustrated when I make them, but its a lesson that I appreciate.

 

I do fear failure. I've read it is a typical NT emotion as we value competence quite highly. It's no so strong to paralyze me from trying to accomplish things however ... at least in the intellectual realm. I don't do so well in the relationship realm however, so fear of failure there is greater ... and it sometimes does prevent me from taking action. Same with athletic endeavors, since my hand/eye coordination are not on par with the greats. Fear of failure constantly looms in the back of my mind, so I work hard to overcome it and succeed ... particularly in my career and core competencies that matter to me.

I've also noticed that I tend to downplay my abilities and talents to avoid the perception of failure. If they are considered lower, then I don't have to justify high performance. If it does happen, everybody is pleasantly surprised. This happens a lot when I estimate how long it will take me to do things at work. I usually finish well ahead of my forecasted time. This is something I still need to work on.

I also agree that success can be even worse than failure, as people will ride you like a throughbred horse to get every iota of work out of you. They will come to you for everything, while the people who don't perform get a free ride and go home early from work every day.

Learning from my mistakes has taught me a lot (especially in relationships) ... so failure does have it's good points. I just don't like experiencing it.

 

I don't fear failure when I'm not invested in the thing I will fail at. Lately I've become uninvested in nearly everything, so I fear nearly nothing. It's all a matter of what the worst that could happen is, and whether or not you can accept that.

I only fear other's expectations of me when someone is genuinely counting on me.