....I have definitely experienced some of what everyone are saying here.
I......can initiate, but....
....I would prefer it if I like the things I initiate
but on the other hand, having attachment and/or some sort of intention can also push me to initiate.
However, if I'm seeing that others are the initiating kind of type;
I usually back up and take supporting role, asking questions or suggesting.
Because I don't want to be seen as annoying or nosy or pesky.
OR, at the same time, I don't want to be seen as vying for responsibility / status.
And at the same time, if things are important, I sometimes get stunned and become inactive / paranoid / paralyzed.
I like the freedom to decide,
I hate the responsibility. (Sorry, am still immature in that aspect)
I like me 'moving',
I.....am bothered if I'm carrying 'others' (what if it goes bad???)