as i posted on my other threads, i do have a lot of trouble at school or every place I go. I just feel so emotionally left out, rejected, unwanted, useless and just nobody. when i was in school i was really waiting for our summer break. and i thought that i was just over thinking about everything. like my problems with friends and with myself and how other people don't understand me. i thought that after summer i would be fine. but then now, i guess that's not what's happening. it's almost school AGAIN. and it all came back. i forgot how it felt. and now, i'm feeling it again. it's just horrible. i hate this feeling. i can't believe this is all happening to me. i mean nobody does understand me and i quite accept that. my parents don't understand me. or anything. my relatives or other friends won't even take me seriously and also my parents. because they think that i'm too young to know this and that and everything. so, whether i'm in school or at home, i'm not accepted. i'm never accepted anywhere anyway so fine i'm okay with that (not that i don't want to be accepted.. but i have a least convinced myself that i would never be accepted) the reason that it's okay for me to stay with my family who does not even understand me, and i still feel useless, rejected and all that rather than at school because, at school, it seems like there's just too much people. too much people to deal with. and i don't know how to get over this problem....... i'm going back to school..... i'm gonna have to feel depressed AGAIN.... i'm gonna have to suffer again....... i'm gonna have to face what i have to face........ how is this!??! i just don't get it anymore!!!!!!! am i supposed to just face it like that......being rejected always!?!? i mean i'm not bad....... i know that..... i just hate this feeling..... it's coming back again.. you know that feeling when you have a problem like you know you're alone and you just don't know where to go when you're lost... then you're looking forward for an escape.. and you found it... but then it didn't turn out to be a REAL escape...you didn't expect it to be a trap and then your problems just BOUNCED BACK TO YOU AGAIN......... (i think it's harder at school because i'm forced to deal and talk to people and face them and everything even if i don't want to unlike at home, or other places. it's really hard..........) so are we just made to be miserable or what?!?!!? i mean we help people....... we help them even if they're mean to us...... it's just that we help them because we feel like it and we pity them and we are good people and we get nothing back is it always like that!?!? i mean we get rejected, we help, we get rejected, we help, we get rejected what are INFJs for? it is nice to be one......but do we always have to get hurt and depressed like this!?!? can't we be just like others!?!?! aren't we normal?