I have done a lot of formal education now and I definitely hate the classroom environment, it achieves nothing for me and I never want to go back there. I truly hate it and I learn much more from a book. I can (and do) achieve high distinction results at formal education, but only when I can find the internal motivation and emotional involvement to do it, otherwise I am a flat credit level student. I am a temperamentally frosty person and I find it very difficult to get along with other people in an environment that is as contrived as a classroom. I also find it totally demotivating to pillage scholarly materials for stuff I need to answer academic questions, it takes like this monumental effort and I spend the whole time struggling with concentration and yawning. It's such a different experience when I can follow my own intetests and discover things in my own time, and that's when I just get lost in learning, and I get lost in hearing what the scholar (or author or artist or whatever) has to say. If I want to achieve anything at all in the classroom I really need to work hard to get myself involved in the material.