hippie
Newbie
- MBTI
- INFJ-T
internally lost introvert , read's as odd as it sounded . will try to keep short no promises .
im a 47 year old man who has not lived your typical American dream , from death twice ,neglect,abuse,foster care(3 different families) last generation of the busing program(bused white kids to black schools and vice versa desegregation ) you get the ideal . i have very few memories of a child ,i assume i have blocked them for my own good ,if they were worth remembering i would . i read an postl on "introvertdear.com/" nice site my opinion. this post mentioned the INFJ being like a chameleon . the more i thought about this it seem to be since a young child till last year . my life has been dictated by some one else, or i adapted myself to those around me so as not to rock the boat. i found myself bartending when the oil patch slowed down and couldnt help but think that was out of character ,but was really good at it any person man or woman could walk up to the bar and by the time they ordered i could hold a short conversation . worked out well when came to tips . i always had a full bar and would carry 5 10 15 different conversations each different than the next. but when i returned hom was exahusted head felt inflated . by morning all good and off to do it again. funny i accoplished this while high and half drunk not only did they tip but bought drinks . is this just one of my survival tactics or a trait ??? or can everyone addapt to a vast number of situations and overcome (survive) them so quickly ??? just curious ( went back to the patch as quickly as i could only had to deal with 4 men there and most of the time none ) so im wondering now that i find myself all alone why do i not know who i am . have i really been living the lives of others just so i wouldnt stand out ,im not scared of anything or am i scared of everything ??? "adapt and over come " is something i say quite often along with " i told you ", "i called that from the start ". " i keep saying but you wont liston ". i told you that wolud happen" or "see what did i tell you ". people dont like that much . i read somewhere " if you knew why didnt you tell me ? reply "would you have belived me if i did "lol
im a 47 year old man who has not lived your typical American dream , from death twice ,neglect,abuse,foster care(3 different families) last generation of the busing program(bused white kids to black schools and vice versa desegregation ) you get the ideal . i have very few memories of a child ,i assume i have blocked them for my own good ,if they were worth remembering i would . i read an postl on "introvertdear.com/" nice site my opinion. this post mentioned the INFJ being like a chameleon . the more i thought about this it seem to be since a young child till last year . my life has been dictated by some one else, or i adapted myself to those around me so as not to rock the boat. i found myself bartending when the oil patch slowed down and couldnt help but think that was out of character ,but was really good at it any person man or woman could walk up to the bar and by the time they ordered i could hold a short conversation . worked out well when came to tips . i always had a full bar and would carry 5 10 15 different conversations each different than the next. but when i returned hom was exahusted head felt inflated . by morning all good and off to do it again. funny i accoplished this while high and half drunk not only did they tip but bought drinks . is this just one of my survival tactics or a trait ??? or can everyone addapt to a vast number of situations and overcome (survive) them so quickly ??? just curious ( went back to the patch as quickly as i could only had to deal with 4 men there and most of the time none ) so im wondering now that i find myself all alone why do i not know who i am . have i really been living the lives of others just so i wouldnt stand out ,im not scared of anything or am i scared of everything ??? "adapt and over come " is something i say quite often along with " i told you ", "i called that from the start ". " i keep saying but you wont liston ". i told you that wolud happen" or "see what did i tell you ". people dont like that much . i read somewhere " if you knew why didnt you tell me ? reply "would you have belived me if i did "lol
