Recent content by Blackmountainside

music. i feel myself move underneath the floor, and a small waist (which i detested and ignored when i was sixteen) can be seen from hips which move like sound itself. no large eyes in hips. and when i dance i know that i am happy.

soon enough it will be 39, 39, 38, 40, 36 degrees celsius. all these days in a row. i will put ice cubes on my cheeks and i will leave my shop with no one to serve and an old man at a fruit and vegetable store will say yes! yes! run away into my refrigerator. crumpled mouths on crumpled faces...

i am very drawn to looking at certain people. it’s the way some people carry their emotions and thoughts. like finding hidden treasure. (usuallly, i have no desire to learn names, occupation, how clever they are -- that sort of thing). just drawn to the feeling. and sometimes they see you at the...

there are some implicit messages in drug testing welfare recipients ---- unemployed people and low income earners: are socially inferior; should not be trusted; are incapable of taking care of other aspects of their lives; require mandatory government supervision to ensure good citizenship. i...

i went to a government school five minutes from the beach. the guys woke early to surf and wagged classes to surf some more. most students wagged. pretty laxed attitudes towards education from students and teachers alike. when i was sixteen i visited one of the universities with my art class...

if someone thinks poorly of me, it can be disheartening. if it’s warranted, i try and look within, if not, then i usually withdraw because of hurt feelings. authenticity and kindness: these are good attributes. i would feel quite content if someone thought these things of me. because i *try*...

no bad experiences , really. to get to library i walk past mathematics faculty. and sometimes i see this maths professor with long grey beard. modest clothing. modest walk. i wonder if he drives a volvo 240. i like looking at him. seems to be such a clever man --- not just maths. but he does...

i’m quiet achiever --- for good or bad. sometimes my parents say to me ‘you are our blessing, we must have done something right with you.’ nahhhh, like i said, i’m just quiet. but i do mediate and console a lot in my family. a role i’ve instinctively taken. but...

no, inside speaks true. it's part of reason i spend so much time alone, because there are no barriers. and part of reason why connection is very precious to me --- because it feels rare and it makes me happy, because afterall, perhaps, i cannot be reclusive all the time. i do need (and desire)...

i keep a lot of stuff in ---- i have done this since i was a small child. i have never really cared to be known or heard just for sake of it. i mostly feel content this way. often, my thoughts and feelings alone, sustain me. nice calm feelings here. (and some thoughts and feelings are so quiet...

^^yes. i do not believe the prison system alone (counter-productive?) is a sufficient means to rehabilitate high-risk (sexual and violent) offenders. many of them require intensive rehabilitation to address underlying problems: cognitive, psychological and social. ideally, this should include...

^^ yes. inside, everything feels quite strong. so externally, i like slow place life ---- i want quiet.

Paladin-X no need to be sorry, it’s not ridiculous. i struggle with this, too. good idea to set boundaries; speaking with someone else about your reactions and emotional response to certain situations can sometimes lighten the load and help gain new more balanced perspectives. some of...

this is difficult for me to put into concrete terms, because it is highly dependent on situation. human relations are multi-faceted, and conflict resolution can get tricky. this comments leads me to think that you have an active decision to make; not simply about different perspectives, but a...

i know what you mean neverwhere. so you can see (insight is a very good thing)--- and you understand why and how about other person. perhaps, you feel your own pain, but you understand theirs, too. some situations are far from perfect and so the answers are also far from perfect...