Hi there, I'm mono and this is my 2nd post on these forums.
I was wondering if there is anyone here who has been to or is currently in medical school?
I'm on a year's leave at the moment, having only started my first year last year. My interest in medicine was always in psychiatry, in fact although I'd wanted to be a doctor since I was a kid I had in recent years been debating psychiatry vs psychology. I stuck with psychiatry because I see mental/emotional/social/psychological health as being intertwined with the physical/physiological happenings of the body, and so I thought it'd be a great way to get a comprehensive view of illness and health. I've also felt that psychiatry is still scrounging around in the dark somewhat (trying so hard to make categories and create certainty) and that it needs to not lose humanism. I think the human body is amazing and am curious about how people operate so uniquely in the world and how the world operates on them.
However I've met a lot of dicky doctors in my life. Arrogant, judgemental, closed-minded, totally not empathic or even trying to appear so types. And I think hospitals are heinous environments. Both for patients and for workers.
It had been a lifelong dream to be able to be in medicine so that I could sit and listen, give proper care and attention to people's problems and their lives, and hopefully be able to help in some way. After school started I tried to find likeminded people or groups I could work for, to help me get through med school and the medical environment as it largely is at the moment. A cosy niche to help sustain me. But nothing held out, people didn't return emails or calls, humanitarian groups for students seemed to be about running the same old fundraisers each year or about encouraging students to use such groups as resume-boosting opportunities.
I eventually lost motivation to study, since I didn't know what all that hard work was for in the end - to be another cog in a machine that now seems to dehumanise rather than empower? Especially after hearing countless closed-minded, judgemental snipes about patients from classmates.
So I have until October to figure out whether to and how to keep going, if I continue with medicine. I still believe in my dream.... I still feel there is a need for what I want to do. I also have fantasies of eventually getting to a place where I could help change the way hospitals are, the way the medical workplace culture is. But the crisis I had last year made me really worry for my health and well-being, it was that part of it - concern for my health - that made me ask for leave.
So.... yeah. Thanks for listening.. If anyone has any thoughts (anyone at all
) I'd appreciate getting another point of view!
I was wondering if there is anyone here who has been to or is currently in medical school?
I'm on a year's leave at the moment, having only started my first year last year. My interest in medicine was always in psychiatry, in fact although I'd wanted to be a doctor since I was a kid I had in recent years been debating psychiatry vs psychology. I stuck with psychiatry because I see mental/emotional/social/psychological health as being intertwined with the physical/physiological happenings of the body, and so I thought it'd be a great way to get a comprehensive view of illness and health. I've also felt that psychiatry is still scrounging around in the dark somewhat (trying so hard to make categories and create certainty) and that it needs to not lose humanism. I think the human body is amazing and am curious about how people operate so uniquely in the world and how the world operates on them.
However I've met a lot of dicky doctors in my life. Arrogant, judgemental, closed-minded, totally not empathic or even trying to appear so types. And I think hospitals are heinous environments. Both for patients and for workers.
It had been a lifelong dream to be able to be in medicine so that I could sit and listen, give proper care and attention to people's problems and their lives, and hopefully be able to help in some way. After school started I tried to find likeminded people or groups I could work for, to help me get through med school and the medical environment as it largely is at the moment. A cosy niche to help sustain me. But nothing held out, people didn't return emails or calls, humanitarian groups for students seemed to be about running the same old fundraisers each year or about encouraging students to use such groups as resume-boosting opportunities.
I eventually lost motivation to study, since I didn't know what all that hard work was for in the end - to be another cog in a machine that now seems to dehumanise rather than empower? Especially after hearing countless closed-minded, judgemental snipes about patients from classmates.
So I have until October to figure out whether to and how to keep going, if I continue with medicine. I still believe in my dream.... I still feel there is a need for what I want to do. I also have fantasies of eventually getting to a place where I could help change the way hospitals are, the way the medical workplace culture is. But the crisis I had last year made me really worry for my health and well-being, it was that part of it - concern for my health - that made me ask for leave.
So.... yeah. Thanks for listening.. If anyone has any thoughts (anyone at all
) I'd appreciate getting another point of view!
