Hello to all of you friends 
I haven't been in for quite a time because I couldn't see the screen to type. I had an eye exam a month or so ago because I was losing my peripheral vision in my right eye and was due for a check up anyway. Doc sent me to the surgeon because she found fast growing compound cataracts in each eye and the one in my right eye was severe and had to come out.
I had it removed on Wednesday and can finally see a bit better today. The multiple dialation drops wore off. lol.
I wish my temporary glasses had that new MetaWorld in them though, lol
Docs gave me a temporary prescription because I chose the lenses that give me close vision and distance prescription because with all the reading and close work I do with my art it made more sense.....that, and the lenses I needed were expensive out of pocket costs my insurances didn't cover. I am so angry at our Healthcare system rules right now. It was a blessing I had the money, otherwise I'd have been labeled legally blind! Another blessing is the place I get my glasses from made me a "free" pair because I'm navigating my world with long distance corrections that are different in each eye until the surgeon puts the left eye lens in this next Wednesday. To say the least I've caught up on my meditation these two days because watching TV, reading, or just plain looking is straining my eyes and giving me a monster headache. So I've been meditating and listening to podcasts with my eyes closed as much as possible while sporting my new temporary dark shades, lol.
The other blessing in this is that I'm a believer! After my eye surgery I sincerely believe I am connected to the Universe in ways I'd not imagined before. ♡
For those that have had cataract surgery I wonder if they experienced similar...My system was at full tilt Wednesday morning from the nervous and anxious energy. I am quite attached to my vision for many reasons and struggle putting eyedrops in because my eye will Slam shut when anything comes close to it, lol. I've been force holding open the lids to do the post-op drop schedule since surgery, lol, it's getting easier tho.
Anyhoo, to give a better picture of my experience after getting wheeled into the OR the anesthesiologist gave me a shot in the IV. At first I didn't think it was more than sailing, lol, because I didn't feel the normal change when I get sedated. The nurse then had me scoot up the bed until my head was off while another nurse slid this mideval contraption under my head and neck. I was ok until they strapped my head into the cradle! That caused a trigger because I have PTSD and can't handle my head or neck confined...so I started breathing through it and when the nurse put the Jaws of Eye on me I laughed. I shit ya not, that's what they call the contraption that pulls the lids away so the doc can do the surgery.
What happened next was phenomenal! They flooded my eye with iodine and the room turned a piny orange color.
I don't feel a thing.
Afterward, the anesthesiologist told me that the drug cocktail he gave me was indeed a sedative and because I had to be able to communicate with the surgical team it only shuts off part of the brain and how it perceives pain. I thought that was cool because I didn't have that stony hangover feeling I get when they knock me out completely with that happy juice cocktail. I did have mental confusion and mild distortion of my perception of time and space. That lasted until evening hours last night.
Well when the doc cut the pouch to remove the cataract my right eye was seeing all the colors, darkness, and white stars of a space nebula! It only lasted for the 15-minutes if the surgery, however OH MY GOODNESS! That was so wild to 'see'. All the fuchsia, purples, blacks, white stars.....I was in awe. The staff must have thought me bonkers while I sipped my apple juice in recovery and reiterated what I saw, lol.
I can still invision what I saw. Almost like a imprint freeze framed in my mind. ♡ did I say it was a majestic and beautiful thing? lol
While resting after I thought to myself that we must really be made of stardust and light and that 15-minutes of a spectacular light and color show must have been my peek into the world from which we come. I sure believe. And, I hope that peek is where we return to when our spirits are tired of this meat sack of a body we use as a vehicle to navigate our earthly existence.
I hope I can find a picture close to what I saw; otherwise, I'll have to paint one so I can continue to reflect on it long into my old sage.....I mean age.
This is close, but missing the white light dots of stars
I haven't been in for quite a time because I couldn't see the screen to type. I had an eye exam a month or so ago because I was losing my peripheral vision in my right eye and was due for a check up anyway. Doc sent me to the surgeon because she found fast growing compound cataracts in each eye and the one in my right eye was severe and had to come out.
I had it removed on Wednesday and can finally see a bit better today. The multiple dialation drops wore off. lol.
I wish my temporary glasses had that new MetaWorld in them though, lol
Docs gave me a temporary prescription because I chose the lenses that give me close vision and distance prescription because with all the reading and close work I do with my art it made more sense.....that, and the lenses I needed were expensive out of pocket costs my insurances didn't cover. I am so angry at our Healthcare system rules right now. It was a blessing I had the money, otherwise I'd have been labeled legally blind! Another blessing is the place I get my glasses from made me a "free" pair because I'm navigating my world with long distance corrections that are different in each eye until the surgeon puts the left eye lens in this next Wednesday. To say the least I've caught up on my meditation these two days because watching TV, reading, or just plain looking is straining my eyes and giving me a monster headache. So I've been meditating and listening to podcasts with my eyes closed as much as possible while sporting my new temporary dark shades, lol.
The other blessing in this is that I'm a believer! After my eye surgery I sincerely believe I am connected to the Universe in ways I'd not imagined before. ♡
For those that have had cataract surgery I wonder if they experienced similar...My system was at full tilt Wednesday morning from the nervous and anxious energy. I am quite attached to my vision for many reasons and struggle putting eyedrops in because my eye will Slam shut when anything comes close to it, lol. I've been force holding open the lids to do the post-op drop schedule since surgery, lol, it's getting easier tho.
Anyhoo, to give a better picture of my experience after getting wheeled into the OR the anesthesiologist gave me a shot in the IV. At first I didn't think it was more than sailing, lol, because I didn't feel the normal change when I get sedated. The nurse then had me scoot up the bed until my head was off while another nurse slid this mideval contraption under my head and neck. I was ok until they strapped my head into the cradle! That caused a trigger because I have PTSD and can't handle my head or neck confined...so I started breathing through it and when the nurse put the Jaws of Eye on me I laughed. I shit ya not, that's what they call the contraption that pulls the lids away so the doc can do the surgery.
What happened next was phenomenal! They flooded my eye with iodine and the room turned a piny orange color.
I don't feel a thing.
Afterward, the anesthesiologist told me that the drug cocktail he gave me was indeed a sedative and because I had to be able to communicate with the surgical team it only shuts off part of the brain and how it perceives pain. I thought that was cool because I didn't have that stony hangover feeling I get when they knock me out completely with that happy juice cocktail. I did have mental confusion and mild distortion of my perception of time and space. That lasted until evening hours last night.
Well when the doc cut the pouch to remove the cataract my right eye was seeing all the colors, darkness, and white stars of a space nebula! It only lasted for the 15-minutes if the surgery, however OH MY GOODNESS! That was so wild to 'see'. All the fuchsia, purples, blacks, white stars.....I was in awe. The staff must have thought me bonkers while I sipped my apple juice in recovery and reiterated what I saw, lol.
I can still invision what I saw. Almost like a imprint freeze framed in my mind. ♡ did I say it was a majestic and beautiful thing? lol
While resting after I thought to myself that we must really be made of stardust and light and that 15-minutes of a spectacular light and color show must have been my peek into the world from which we come. I sure believe. And, I hope that peek is where we return to when our spirits are tired of this meat sack of a body we use as a vehicle to navigate our earthly existence.
I hope I can find a picture close to what I saw; otherwise, I'll have to paint one so I can continue to reflect on it long into my old sage.....I mean age.
This is close, but missing the white light dots of stars
