Mochingnawy
Newbie
- MBTI
- INFJ
- Enneagram
- 4w5
Hey there ! I’ve been into mbti for 2 years now and I’ve been trying to type myself since then , so i first tested as Intj but that turned out as completely irrelevant for a number of reasons , after that , I’ve learnt about the functions more deeply but the more I try to convince myself I am Intj , i realise I’m both satisfying my self-image as deep,wise ,knowledgable and perceptive and my need for social validation and somehow proving to myself that I do not need people ( I’ve considered an Ni-Ti loop ) , I’ve had this fear of being an Si dom , like I viewed Si as being narrow-minded , idiotic for a very long time and now that I’ve seen it from a different perspective , I believe that I just acted upon it from my own flaws , cause as i grow up I’ve been trying to prove how I perceive myself to people , trying to convince people at a certain period that I’m creative and intelligent by shooting down people who depend on their memory ( although i have an excellent one ) , I have also had this very deep need for knowledge since I was a child , I think it is a way of compensating my feelings of being unloved , feeling and understanding other people just makes me want to help them cause through their hardships and that is why I aspire to be a psychaitrist . I always have the hunches involved with Ni but also the fantasy world which is always related Ne , I always get this image of how what I’m saying will produce some result which can sometimes cause me to stop talking or change the course of the conversation cause it just hit me how on the long-term this will cause some problem , I am usually closed off to strangers but recently , I’ve started learning some of the social dynamics and you know , I already just “know” people from our first meeting but I’ve developed more of a method to be sociable and open with people . As i wrote this thread , I felt the need to impress a bit , i felt a bit anxious cause i knew i was going to be judged , and I also hoped that I ‘d be typed as Infj but then I thought it’s stupid to want one type over another cause the main reason of the whole typing is self-development and overcoming your flaws and accepting your weaknesses . I ‘d appreciate any help .
