Found myself living alone most of my life, and the times I stayed or married were short. Get bored easily. Lowered my expectations of someone perfect or more like myself many years ago. Now I put up with things I never would have years ago. It is costly to my inner spirit. I question myself. Always. Over-analyzing the situation constantly. Never stops. Happy when everything is going the way it fits my acceptable happy zone, but can get irritable and sad really easy. Then, everything goes well again for awhile. Time will run out one day. God, that sounds terrible.
Blame myself for being where I am when I am sad or unhappy. Wonder sometimes if I am just trying not to hurt anyone else. I have to protect. I have to help. I need some rest. I need help, too. Good night.
Blame myself for being where I am when I am sad or unhappy. Wonder sometimes if I am just trying not to hurt anyone else. I have to protect. I have to help. I need some rest. I need help, too. Good night.
