Growing up I was often fearful of what 'love' may feel like, learning from a young age that I could not trust relatives or parents with my emotions or sensitivity, willfully avoiding such conditional acceptance and interpretations I saw from so many actually in relationships or unsure what they were even seeking themselves (the kind of people that expect others to please or make them happy as an entitlement rather than seeking self awareness and self identity themselves). However once I saw a psychotherapist I came to realise that my elder relatives were very much self interested rather than unconditional in their expressions of love, not able to seek emotional attachment from anyone themselves without expectations, demands, manipulation or projections of inferiority cast onto others.
Reading Real Love by Greg Baer (highly recommended for anyone seeking to mature inside and outside relationships sought) and actually learning from a friend 2 years ago what acceptance, conditionless regard, selfless interest in others and actually caring about the happiness of others looked like as a new experience of unconditional love helped my sense of self immensely. Realising as I had done for years (common with INFJs it seems) that I was giving love or respect to others leaving nothing behind for myself, becoming misanthropic as a result of seeing so many people willing to take respect or support without ever wishing (or knowing how) to reciprocate themselves without conditional notions such as deserving, entitlement, 'being owed it', currying favour from personas, , manipulation for rewards, nothing is ever free, responsibility, favours sought, what's in it for me, ends to a means, need or 1 sided expectations.
(My relationship with love involves the need for self acceptance, self compassion and seeking to remain authentically honest about one's true self nearly always so we can each be sure that our motivations are virtuous when we share or seek loving acceptance for others, and ideally in time receive reciprocation as the person we truly are and vice versa.)