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Yes, we met online. but she lived close by.
[*]What aspects of the relationship or your partner did you appreciate the most?
She was a lot like me in a lot of ways... which was weird but cool. Luckily it was my positive qualities that seemed the most similar to hers. We were both clever and driven, very "alpha-ish" in the way we applied our beliefs. We had intense/incredible mental/physical sexual chemistry and both gave 100% to it. We both enjoyed making the other smile/be happy, like preferred it to being made happy, which just made the whole thing work, but we both spent a lot of time in each others heads. So there was a really good mental connection.
[*]What aspects of the relationship or your partner did you appreciate the least?
TBH we were only together a short while because at the time, I was being seriously immature and shady. Granted I was healing from a long term relationship that ended. Not that that is an excuse for my asshole behavior, I am not a victim of my environment, I did that fully aware against my better nature. She was pretty awesome all in all, but I think ultimately I might have started to get annoyed by the same things I liked about her... like, she's alpha-ish in her application of beliefs and a fixer, so she would have been constantly trying to mold me into something else I believe, and the being in each others head thing is just a road to paranoia city! To be constantly worried what they're thinking, and how it applies to things and how I effect that and trying to make the "right moves" all the time... we both seemed to do it, and it would have just culminated I think in problems later. But in the soft light glaze of lustful 1st meetings and initial beginnings it was so charming.
[*]Why did you break up (if applicable)?
As hinted about before, I was an A-hole. I was being really selfish and mean at that point because I was in a "treat women like shit" mentality brought on by a bad breakup and a lot of feelings of insecurity. So I was essentially dating multiple women and using them for their company, their warmth, and their sex, and while I did share myself back fully well almost fully I never intended to be tied down so soon again, so I came into the relationship on a lie, perpetuated the lie with more lies, spent days on end awake driving between NY and CT on the redbull to stay awake, weed to dull, and sex to soothe diet. I dropped contact with her when I felt she was getting too attached and I felt like I was getting attached.(Which set off the SCARY alert).
And there I left it and ignored all her phone calls, emails etc. I did try to contact her when I felt guilty about it a few months later, to which she ignored. I gave it another shot around 6 months later and was able to talk to her and re-friend her to a degree, but any chance of something happening again seemed tossed and gone.