So lately I've been sort of depressed, although nothing is going wrong in my life right now other than stress from college. I've come to the realization that I'm very unhappy with the way things are in modern culture, I really don't feel like I fit in. I've always felt emotions with really high sensitivity (though I've got one hell of a pokerface). I'm an INFJ and I don't think I've ever met another person who could understand me entirely. I have more close friends than I could ever need but I don't feel like I can talk to them about myself, I have many interests that my friends would never care to talk about. Maybe I'm afraid of being judged or as if it would bore them to hear what I have to say, so I end up withholding this vast cloud of endless thought that I don't know how to express. For instance, North American culture is all about loud pop music with horrible lyrics and fast cars and who is yelling the loudest, but I feel like I want to hold on to the past because I don't want all the good things to fade away. Things like 30's-50's jazz will literally bring me to tears sometimes because it's so beautiful, and it reminds me of a more ideal time with higher values and simple pleasures (aside from the war) and I wish things could be more ideal now. It's all cliched, it's all been done before, everything has greyed together now and I do not like where culture is going. I'm only 19, I've grown up through all of this but I've usually rejected anything that was popular or mainstream, and I tend to long for things that realistically can never happen. I feel like the rareness and beauty of life is being taken for granted and I don't want to let go.
I just want to lie in the grass and watch the clouds pass, cant an INFJ get a break?
Does anyone else feel this way? Can anyone help me feel okay again?
I just want to lie in the grass and watch the clouds pass, cant an INFJ get a break?
Does anyone else feel this way? Can anyone help me feel okay again?
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