First off, I’m a 1% INTP-Female- so I’m a bit more toward a person who has a lot of empathy, recognizes and understands feelings, feels strong desire to help others. I’m just logical AF about it. I’m a neuroscientist- not a fluffy one, hard core down deep to the atoms. So it is weird to me to feel so discombobulated.
I am falling for one of your clan really hard. REALLY hard. The “where the F*€£ have you been all of my life” hard.
It’s confusing, “dizzy twit” doesn’t begin to describe the brain scramble I am currently trying to lasso and keep under control.
He might be a perfect human being. He doesn’t think so of course. Y’all’s internal dialogue is brutal.
I’ve lurked here reading and have gleaned a lot of insight. For instance he is fiercely private. You all helped me see that this was just his personality, not an effort to hide something horrendous. He has started opening up in little drips and drabs. He drops clues and I’ve learned that I should let him say “I’ll tell you some day” and mentally dog ear that page. Despite burning curiosity, I leave it alone. But, he does open up sometimes, I can almost hear the hinges of the steel box he stuffs all of these things in, creak and groan in protest. I choose to feel honored he’s trying, but he’s a slow burn and I accept that about him. Because I have read what you all have written I appreciate that this is a big deal to him, to try. So thank you for baring your souls here. It has helped me understand.
Straight forward honesty here, I don’t have much to say that is profound or bereft of gushy, dizzy, sentiment about what I think about this man. He is simply put- spectacular to me. I finally logged in and made an account because I just needed a space to talk about him. Understanding that he is intensely private I understand that he would feel awkward and uncomfortable if he found out I gushed over much about him to my friends. And I know it would come out that I’d done it, because if he asked I’d tell the truth. I feel honor bound to keep the sanctity of his privacy.
I feel like this is an anonymous space where I can say these things.
I would also mention, you guys are really hard on yourselves.
Perhaps the angels among us always are.
I feel ridiculous. It’s so good.
I am falling for one of your clan really hard. REALLY hard. The “where the F*€£ have you been all of my life” hard.
It’s confusing, “dizzy twit” doesn’t begin to describe the brain scramble I am currently trying to lasso and keep under control.
He might be a perfect human being. He doesn’t think so of course. Y’all’s internal dialogue is brutal.
I’ve lurked here reading and have gleaned a lot of insight. For instance he is fiercely private. You all helped me see that this was just his personality, not an effort to hide something horrendous. He has started opening up in little drips and drabs. He drops clues and I’ve learned that I should let him say “I’ll tell you some day” and mentally dog ear that page. Despite burning curiosity, I leave it alone. But, he does open up sometimes, I can almost hear the hinges of the steel box he stuffs all of these things in, creak and groan in protest. I choose to feel honored he’s trying, but he’s a slow burn and I accept that about him. Because I have read what you all have written I appreciate that this is a big deal to him, to try. So thank you for baring your souls here. It has helped me understand.
Straight forward honesty here, I don’t have much to say that is profound or bereft of gushy, dizzy, sentiment about what I think about this man. He is simply put- spectacular to me. I finally logged in and made an account because I just needed a space to talk about him. Understanding that he is intensely private I understand that he would feel awkward and uncomfortable if he found out I gushed over much about him to my friends. And I know it would come out that I’d done it, because if he asked I’d tell the truth. I feel honor bound to keep the sanctity of his privacy.
I feel like this is an anonymous space where I can say these things.
I would also mention, you guys are really hard on yourselves.
Perhaps the angels among us always are.
I feel ridiculous. It’s so good.
