Do you experience this?

I don't really care what people think of me as long as it doesn't inhibit my professional success.

Everyone judges.

 

I went through this in the last year since April 2019. I lost 100lbs, got a job I loved, became a stand up comedian and gained a lot of confidence in myself. I had to change my entire life to lift my depression.

In doing that I lost a really good friend of 2 years because she didn't like the way I was changing. I've also had a lot of times where I "miss a connection" with new people because my lifestyle doesn't mesh with theirs. They're cool people but we just don't quite fit.

I think there has to be a willingness to let whatever needs to happen, happen. What you're describing is relationships changing as you change as a person. I think the older people get the more prominent this becomes.

Not everyone grows at the same rate or in the same direction. We have to be willing to let go of what a relationship was like in the past and accept how it now is. People who do change but have strong roots in each other can overcome their differences by allowing the relationship to change naturally and not trying to make it "the way it was".

Some people can't handle that and will cut you out. My good friend of 2 years felt threatened by me changing. I tried to lead the friendship in a new, healthier direction but she liked the old patterns better and wouldn't let go of what we used to be.

So your ability to keep up these relationships isn't wholely dependent on you. If the other person gets stuck in how things used to be and won't let the relationship change, that will end it, and really the only way to prevent it would be to return to the way things used to be- and I don't think it is worth sacrificing you're growth and development as a human being to keep old relationships up that no longer function.

 

What if I flipped this and said it's not that people are being "selfish" but simply that they are afraid?

Everyone in life is just trying to seek happiness. Including you. When what makes me happy conflicts with what makes you happy, if I'm insecure, that makes me afraid.

If I'm not secure in who I am and what I like, and someone doesn't agree with me, well that means they're rejecting me!

Or what if this other person, who I now view as superior to me, realizes what a fraud I am? What if they want me to start to change, and I don't want to?

I think we're talking about the same thing but I wanted to challenge the "selfish" perspective with suggesting, maybe it's not that some people are selfish (everyone is inherently selfish!) but that some people are insecure and lash out when they're afraid instead of trying to work though their fears.

 

People will be people and time will go while you're afraid of them . The reason they are judging you is because you remind them who they shall became and that they should try to improve themselves. It's just that most people don't want that and they are too afraid of it . Don't let them influence you , life is not about impressing them it's about impressing yourself in your most beautiful fashions , for that
Moment when the stage is crowded and the only voice you can hear is yours.

 

When you grow only you understand that growth. Sometimes people around you preferred the "old" you. They don't understand why you grew and changed, and for the most part, will not seek to understand. If they can't accommodate you as you now are they don't belong in your life.

 

Fuck em.