Ahh, I just watched your videos. 
I admire how honest you were about your life situation in your video, and towards me too. And it's funny you said you're socially inept because you don't seem that way in it.
Lol at the porn obsession xD I totally understand where you're coming from though. I also feel that I first joined this forum at a bad time, had a lot of issues that I had repressed within myself, and just acted like a trolling dumbass, especially in the beginning. Since then, I think I've healed a lot and am more in touch with how I used to be before depression and anxiety. I think a break from the forum helped a lot (for both of us) though, don't you? I've been thinking about how at the times when we're most vulnerable and should be taking the time to look inward and concentrate our efforts on working on ourselves and improving our functionality in our world, those are the times when we want to just find a way out and escape. In that way I think internet forums like this are too tempting for certain people at certain times; they're basically dangerous. I think I abused the forum to release my negative emotions, which must have hurt a lot of peoples feelings, or at least made myself look like an out of control crazy person.
I also relate to how you describe your ups and downs from day to day =P and I recently moved out from my parents house too, since fall. I guess we've been going through some similar changes, and I don't know what advice or answers to give to you : ) but I think we're on the right track. I think what's important is just to not give up on believing that we can improve ourselves, and to keep working hard at it. And I'm very glad to hear you aren't a cutter! neither am i. anyways, you can talk to me about your thoughts and feeling and update me on your life anytime! 
I admire how honest you were about your life situation in your video, and towards me too. And it's funny you said you're socially inept because you don't seem that way in it.Lol at the porn obsession xD I totally understand where you're coming from though. I also feel that I first joined this forum at a bad time, had a lot of issues that I had repressed within myself, and just acted like a trolling dumbass, especially in the beginning. Since then, I think I've healed a lot and am more in touch with how I used to be before depression and anxiety. I think a break from the forum helped a lot (for both of us) though, don't you? I've been thinking about how at the times when we're most vulnerable and should be taking the time to look inward and concentrate our efforts on working on ourselves and improving our functionality in our world, those are the times when we want to just find a way out and escape. In that way I think internet forums like this are too tempting for certain people at certain times; they're basically dangerous. I think I abused the forum to release my negative emotions, which must have hurt a lot of peoples feelings, or at least made myself look like an out of control crazy person.
I also relate to how you describe your ups and downs from day to day =P and I recently moved out from my parents house too, since fall. I guess we've been going through some similar changes, and I don't know what advice or answers to give to you : ) but I think we're on the right track. I think what's important is just to not give up on believing that we can improve ourselves, and to keep working hard at it. And I'm very glad to hear you aren't a cutter!
neither am i. anyways, you can talk to me about your thoughts and feeling and update me on your life anytime! 
