For myself I got very sick and felt in despair. Like becoming lost. But then I found my way again and the suicidal thoughts lifted. It did take some months.
Brain chemistry is another thing.
Brain chemistry is another thing.
Absence of rest/sleep over several days creates a lasting challenge that can become somewhat cynical. Ever go without sleep for over three nights and days? The fourth day can become almost unbearable. Trying to stop meds one has been taking for many years for other reasons can and will complicate this situation. I actually was at the doctor today discussing this situation, so back on the meds I went. Guess what? Still cannot sleep. He seems to think when circumstances get better this may all go away. Asked me to call if I have suicidal thoughts. No tendencies, but the thoughts come and go. That is just the curious, analytical side of me, though. You can bet your sweet butt I won't, so why the worry? Why are thoughts always tangled into the nest of tendencies and actions?................................................................I've thought about walking on water before. Does that make me a nut? Never tried it................................I'd have to say human weaknesses cause the thoughts of suicide. Mental incapabilities may very well be the cause of tendencies. Giving up may be the leading cause of suicide, though I know of at least one who did it for happiness. [MENTION=1579]Odyne[/MENTION], the use of the word delusional: is that so? [MENTION=5045]Skarekrow[/MENTION], is it a cry for help or a cry from the helpless? [MENTION=1926]TinyBubbles[/MENTION], when we stop caring we are indeed in trouble. However, how can one stop caring when life has so much to offer? ..................Time to stare at the ceiling more...
Probably a bit of both most of the time...or at least the feeling of one not being taken seriously otherwise....maybe mixed in with feelings of painting one’s self into a corner.@Skarekrow, is it a cry for help or a cry from the helpless?
None of the above is meant in any way to be judgemental. It's just the conclusion I've come to myself.When you in that dark place it's as if you completely forget the light, that the two exist. You can't remember the other reality and all feels hopeless and lost. I don't know about dealing with physical pain, that I imagine adds another dimension to the whole thing. We're constantly shifting through the light and the dark, and a decision taken when the pendulum has swung, I imagine may be an outcome that was not truly intended. Or may not have been truly intended. Thus the wisdom of "sleeping on things". It's difficult when people find it hard to talk about their emotions or maybe don't feel they have someone to turn to. More statistically in the male population because of men, sadly being trained to not talk about their emotions and to be "tough." My understanding of the law of cause and effect, and the idea that the seeds of this life will carry on and create the circumstances of my next; have led me to believe.... I do not want to repeat any unresolved trauma or angst, so I'd better deal with it in this life, and not seek an escape. I recently listened to a podcast by a empath American psychiatrist Dr Judith Orloff. She said that people who commit suicide get left stuck in a painful realm, where the pain and angst they feel at the moment of their death...continues. Not a great answer then.
Help for EmpathsIn my case, these thoughts have mostly come from taking on the pain/hopelessness of others and feeling helpless to do enough without sacrificing basically my whole personal life and goals. Taking on the pain of others can really push one over the edge.