are you into classical music Jim?? if not you should look up this site called classicalcdguide.com. i have really gotten into classical music for this reason because the thought and emotion in it is so deep.
I do this too Sometimes, I used to imagine some very romantic or personal story behind the words to a song I felt emotionally affected by. I always wanted to believe there was something behind it than just a good song written well. It was fun trying to find that soul connection to the music.
I remember listening to a piece of classical music and typing an entire story explaining the composer's reason for writing the piece. It was very "intuitively" inspired story I would say.
I do this all the time. I find a connection to the song and try to understand how this person felt when making their song. Live performances feel more intense. You can just look at the artist and tell this was an important part of their lives, its raw, and whether or not they have much facial expressions, I feel its like they are holding out their heart for everyone to see. It's beautiful. And depending on the song, I'll find a way to relate it to myself. The words may not match how I feel, or the beat/vice versa, but I'll listen to a song on an emotional level. I find with living with my brother and not being able to open up to him as much as I'd like (it's just the way he is) , I will share a song with him and see his reaction. Most of the time he just listens to the structure of the song, etc. Which is interesting to me because I don't look at it that way. If he paid attention to the music I was listening to throughout the day, he'd know my mood in a heartbeat without being in the same room. I make it pretty obvious when we're together. Anyways, thats another topic.
For songs that I connect with and enjoy, I find myself being almost obsessed with understanding the music. I don’t mean the words or lyrics, but the purpose behind them. It’s easy enough to understand the lyrics and what is being said but I want to understand more than that.
I find myself thinking, why? Why did this person feel this way and create this song? Why did they use this word and not another? What where they feeling, what event or idea sparked this song? This is not with every song but really just the ones I feel a connection too. I wonder about how the artist is as a person, what their childhood was like, what struggles they have overcome. Most of the time I don’t even realize I am doing it but I find myself making judgments on that artist by listening to the story being told in their music. I listen to the tone, the word choice and how it is different from their other work. Really it’s almost as if I am taking the music and trying to construct a person that I can imagine so that I may connect to the music at a deeper level. It becomes something more than just listening to the music as the music forms a person that I can see every time I listen to the song.
Like in a fun and uplifting song I imagine a person that correlates to that and then I can understand the emotion. The same goes for a sad song and sometimes I picture what the artist looks like before I even see them. Sometimes my mental image is pretty close, others its way off but it’s almost like I can’t understand the emotion of the song if I don’t first create this mental image. In all honesty, I can only connect to the song once I imagine the person conveying that emotion, whatever that emotion may be. It can be a group of people or just one person, but until I can construct the event, I can’t connect to the song and any song I can’t do this with, I really don’t enjoy much.
Obviously. Haha. But how do you stop something from happening, when you don't even realize it is happening in the first place? Thought is instant and it is very difficult for me to stop a thought from happening without first thinking about that thought. Plus it is even more difficult to not finish a thought especially when I do not have understanding of why I started thinking or feeling in a certain way in the first place.You're thinking about it too much.
You prob'ly think this thread is about you, you're soooo vaaaain!