INTP in exploration mode
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- MBTI
- INTP
A new INTP on an INFJ site because he knows an INFJ that is confusing him...Imagine that. I'm not even sure where to start but I will start with the thing that is totally creating all sorts of confusion for me. I am a very non demonstrative person emotionally. I don't even think I cried when my parents died (not that I didn't feel it deeply). Well anyway, this INFJ will start talking about things and the way she describes them is so beautiful I literally start to get tears in my eyes and I'm like... WTF! When I am around her I'm literally the happiest I've ever been in my whole life and I'm not even sure why. I keep asking myself .... Do you feel that way because your needy and she gives you attention? Is she resolving or touching some childhood trauma? Are you attracted to her and it's really a physical thing? Yes to all of the above but that's not really it.
She has often said that she thinks we are the same person (does that mean anything INFJ's?). I have this ability to look really deep inside her (everybody actually) and when I look inside of her I just see her how she really is and the only word that comes to mind is beautiful. Basically I see people and the world as crap. The world is NAZI Germany and terrorists. It's people parking in the handicapped spot and leaving their dog in the car in the summer. It's people just plain sucking. Then I look at her and she is so kind to me and so understanding (at times it is eerie... but I like it
). She sees the world as it should be or could be and I am mesmerized. She like totally inspires me to be the best I can be, not to please her but because I know she's right and I keep growing as a person (self actualizing?). I never want to be less than how she sees me. I just...I don't know. There is so much more than this that I would like to explore in another thread because it's way more complicated than this. But, basically, I don't want to handle this incorrectly because my world is way better with her in it and I want her in it (even though she probably shouldn't be in it). I would like the INFJ people here to help me because I am clueless. So my first question would be "What the hell is she doing to me"? because all my defenses are failing me, my emotions are overwhelming my logic and I'm starting to get reckless.
She has often said that she thinks we are the same person (does that mean anything INFJ's?). I have this ability to look really deep inside her (everybody actually) and when I look inside of her I just see her how she really is and the only word that comes to mind is beautiful. Basically I see people and the world as crap. The world is NAZI Germany and terrorists. It's people parking in the handicapped spot and leaving their dog in the car in the summer. It's people just plain sucking. Then I look at her and she is so kind to me and so understanding (at times it is eerie... but I like it
). She sees the world as it should be or could be and I am mesmerized. She like totally inspires me to be the best I can be, not to please her but because I know she's right and I keep growing as a person (self actualizing?). I never want to be less than how she sees me. I just...I don't know. There is so much more than this that I would like to explore in another thread because it's way more complicated than this. But, basically, I don't want to handle this incorrectly because my world is way better with her in it and I want her in it (even though she probably shouldn't be in it). I would like the INFJ people here to help me because I am clueless. So my first question would be "What the hell is she doing to me"? because all my defenses are failing me, my emotions are overwhelming my logic and I'm starting to get reckless.
