Some posts that enfp can be shy made got me thinking. I've run into some weird feelings and inner conflicts with my Ti. Its kind of hard to explain, but I'll give it a shot.
One thing is that underneath the Ni/Fe ability to detect people's feelings and emotions, my Ti is often silently analyzing this data. Its like I quantify and label people's interests and behaviors. Like "Bob likes sports, and I don't. So if he's talking about football, I'll just go do something else. But he has a good taste in music, so I'll talk to him about music sometimes, and maybe he can tell me a good band or two."
This usually disturbs me. I have a tendency to think that most people's minds work this way, they just aren't as aware of it, but perhaps I'm mistaken. Since my Ni thrives on the abstract deeper meaning of things, when my Ti whittles someone down to certain "uses" as if they were a product, that seems to strip a relationship of its meaning, and kind of makes me feel sick, like I'm a bad person. Its not that this happens to me often, but sometimes I need to prevent my kindness from being taken advantage of or to spare myself from martyrdom, or I may lack healthy sources for Fe. In these times, I try and answer questions like "what do I want?" and "whats important to me?", but the way the answers come sometimes seems so soulless.
Another thing happens to me sometimes when I hear conflicting messages about something from different trusted sources, and feel like I must come to a conclusion on my own. For example, lets use religion. I honestly want to know my stance, sometimes I feel like spirituality is important, but I also doubt its validity. So I'll take ideas like the soul, or the identity, and break them down with scientific information, usually leading me to start to feel like there is no free-will, and that identity is an illusion, just an accumulation of data and processes in the brain.
Once again, to my Ni these thoughts are likely the most repulsive I've ever had. I depend on meaning, and if I come to the conclusion that I have no meaning and nor does the world in general, than it practically paralyzes me from doing anything. I just have to push away my Ti and forget about it, I guess this is when I move to Se and go for some from of entertainment or comfort to take my mind off things.
These are two situations I can think of where my Ti makes me uncomfortable. Has anyone had similar experiences? What are your thoughts?
One thing is that underneath the Ni/Fe ability to detect people's feelings and emotions, my Ti is often silently analyzing this data. Its like I quantify and label people's interests and behaviors. Like "Bob likes sports, and I don't. So if he's talking about football, I'll just go do something else. But he has a good taste in music, so I'll talk to him about music sometimes, and maybe he can tell me a good band or two."
This usually disturbs me. I have a tendency to think that most people's minds work this way, they just aren't as aware of it, but perhaps I'm mistaken. Since my Ni thrives on the abstract deeper meaning of things, when my Ti whittles someone down to certain "uses" as if they were a product, that seems to strip a relationship of its meaning, and kind of makes me feel sick, like I'm a bad person. Its not that this happens to me often, but sometimes I need to prevent my kindness from being taken advantage of or to spare myself from martyrdom, or I may lack healthy sources for Fe. In these times, I try and answer questions like "what do I want?" and "whats important to me?", but the way the answers come sometimes seems so soulless.
Another thing happens to me sometimes when I hear conflicting messages about something from different trusted sources, and feel like I must come to a conclusion on my own. For example, lets use religion. I honestly want to know my stance, sometimes I feel like spirituality is important, but I also doubt its validity. So I'll take ideas like the soul, or the identity, and break them down with scientific information, usually leading me to start to feel like there is no free-will, and that identity is an illusion, just an accumulation of data and processes in the brain.
Once again, to my Ni these thoughts are likely the most repulsive I've ever had. I depend on meaning, and if I come to the conclusion that I have no meaning and nor does the world in general, than it practically paralyzes me from doing anything. I just have to push away my Ti and forget about it, I guess this is when I move to Se and go for some from of entertainment or comfort to take my mind off things.
These are two situations I can think of where my Ti makes me uncomfortable. Has anyone had similar experiences? What are your thoughts?