I am struggling more than ever with second guessing everything I say and trying to filter it through the eyes of every possible person affected. As a result I delete half or more of the posts I make on forums. If there is some dynamic of tension throughout a forum (not referring to this one), or if one member is an ex, a friend, current relationship, I drive myself mad trying to think if what I said could be possibly misconstrued or what sorts of assumptions people might read. I'm taking this too far and am walking on eggshells (less so here than anywhere. It's a relief actually). Unfortunately people appear really volatile and fragile to me. I can usually hold steady and not get easily offended myself, but others seem erratic. I suspect I will be second guessing this, but not as much as on forums where there are tensions between entire groups of people and those who get so mad and it seems so alien to me. I feel out of step with people and like I have to work extra hard to not step on a mine. Social interactions feel exactly like mine fields to me when anger is introduced. It's the one emotion I blank out over. Sometimes I can't even see it and when I do, I get really disoriented.
Do any of you struggle with this and how do you temper it in a reasonable manner?
Do any of you struggle with this and how do you temper it in a reasonable manner?