my passion in life is my reason for living and without it life would not be meaningful for me. i can enjoy beautiful moments in life independently of it but without it my life as a whole is not meaningful and i probably would be too unhappy to even notice these moments. i have to do it because i will never be happy or have any personal meaning in my life if i don't do it. luckily it's possible for me to do it and still meet my basic responsibilities to myself, my family, my society etc. but i've given up all these responsibilities for it before and i think i would do it again too. i don't know what it would take to stop me from doing it. i've given up a lot for it and whether i am successful or not i already know that it was worth it. i look around myself and see all these people with no meaning following a track that was laid out for them and just waiting for something to happen to them and i am so happy that i am not like that, i know that all the work was worthwhile. i feel like i wouldn't let anything get in my way now, and that i would give up anything for it. i don't know whether that's the truth or not, it probably isn't, but i can only tell how i feel and how much i've been driven so far and how much i'm still planning to give up. there's something inside me that says that i have to be this and there's nothing else that i can be and i am driven to be the best that i can be in life so there are really no alternatives for me. i don't know what point you have to abandon this. for me the answer right now is never. but i think it's probably different for everyone.